1st and 5th Gear

Does taking a selfie while biking cancel out the fact that I was wearing a helmet?

Do you ever have the feeling of wanting to move faster because there are others around you? I notice this for myself on the highway; if I’m the only car in sight, I’ll go closer to the speed limit and be happy with where I’m headed. But the closer other cars get, the more there’s a pressure to either move out of the way (and let 130km/h do their thing) or zoom past the ‘slow’ cars in the middle lane and shake my head at them.

I think it’s partially reflected in how I view cars & driving — I can’t remember the last time I ‘went for a ride’; it’s always a functional activity to go from Point A to Point B. A better parallel is walking downtown, where I have the same frustration when commuting to the gym, but feel more at ease when I’m calling a friend and going for a walk.

My career has been oddly similar to driving. Since high school, I’ve always had a “Point A-B” mentality. Getting into a good college, then getting good internships, then starting a business, etc. Everything I do has a purpose and a destination, and I’ve typically crushed it at getting there as fast as possible.

I’ll call this “5th gear” — working efficiently and moving quickly to the destination / goal. In this post, I want to unpack how I’ve operated in 5th gear, and how I’m viewing my upcoming transition to what I’ll call 1st gear. This is an evolution of my last post on Mastery vs Adventure, so if you haven’t checked that out already, please give it a read.

For those who are skimming, key points / summary below:

  • I want to maximize my potential and be ‘ahead’, which means being on the most productive gear (5th gear) of my metaphorical bicycle

  • Sometimes I need to switch from 5th gear (solving problems) to 1st gear (finding problems) when I hit a hill in my career. This takes a different mindset and I don’t always see the hill.

  • Biking without a purpose (1st gear but on a flat surface) can reveal a lot of things that I never noticed. A faster route from Point A to Point B, a rest stop that doesn’t reset my progress, etc.

  • ‘Bike rides’ don’t last forever and focusing on Point A/B (purpose) means I might miss the intrinsic value of ‘biking’, as I’m too focused on an outcome

  • There’s always the fear that I’m on a stationary bike and I’m expending energy / time without a purpose — but simply asking myself this question helps with reflection

Being the fastest

One of my biggest fears on a day-to-day is that I’m not accomplishing my full potential. Whatever I’m doing (work, personal, etc.), I want to be as effective as it as I can be. Notice that while it often yields comparisons, it’s more of an internal battle — if Trevor made $10 yesterday but could’ve made $12, Trevor today will be disappointed with him.

A lot of my friends who fall into the ‘optimizer / Type A’ category echo this sentiment. They want to get to Point B the fastest, so that they can set a new destination and be further ahead. I remember getting a lot of praise for being ‘younger’ to do something (get a specific job, start a business, etc.). While this happens less as I age, there’s still a feeling of being ‘ahead’ of the pack.

I also took pride in being ‘ahead’ not to due being the smartest, or working the hardest, but rather working the smartest. Taking the path of least resistance to a given outcome, and constantly asking “what is a faster/better route” when I started to encounter any meaningful resistance.

In my opinion, this is the embodiment of 5th gear. Assuming your bicycle has speeds 1-5, by being in 5th gear, you are peddling the least while making the biggest strides / advances. This also echoes the concept of problem-solving; give me a destination and I’ll get there. But what happens when there isn’t a destination?

Finding the next problem

You can’t always be in 5th gear when cycling. The basic look at this is “if you’re always in 5th gear, you’ll burn out” but that’s not the way I see it. Instead, I would look more at the situation I’m in… When I’m sprinting at a problem but realize I’ve been tackling it the wrong way, I equate this to approaching a hill.

To beat a hill, you need to be in 1st gear. You peddle more but on a shorter track (wheel?) but you don’t exert as much energy and make similar progress as taking that hill in 5th gear. If we equate 5th gear to ‘solving problems’, then 1st gear is ‘finding problems’.

Whatever this thing is called (Unsplash - 2019)

The goal in 1st gear is to be in discovery (explore) mode. The smaller wheel rotations are equivalent to small experiments — unlike 5th gear, where you’re sprinting towards an outcome, 4-6 months at a time, 1st gear means that every week could look (feel) drastically different since you’re evaluating a lot of different options.

This takes a very different skill set & mindset than 5th gear. It involves being more introspective, asking questions about purpose / goals, and being patient with when the outcome will arrive. It may feel like I’m not making progress, especially when I see people in 5th gear going much faster, even going downhill (tailwinds, getting outcomes, etc.).

It’s also hard to shift gears, because you don’t always see the hill. Sometimes I’ll peddle with the same intensity as I had in 5th gear, and get frustrated when I’m not making the progress I was before. It’s also a weird feeling… Taking longer to walk to the gym tomorrow, without knowing why that’s the case (i.e. that the problem / destination has changed), is a mind bender.

Coasting

Are you following me thus far? If you are, I might be about to lose you. Using the analogy of the bicycle, I want to throw a new (meta) scenario at you. Instead of thinking of 5th gear as Point A to Point B, and 1st gear as tackling a hill, I want you to imagine that you’re on a flat surface with no end in sight.

You can peddle hard in 5th gear or you can peddle a lot less in 1st gear. Naturally, you might shift to 1st gear (exploration) since it doesn’t make sense to exert energy without purpose. But at the same time, if you’re not in 1st gear for a reason (i.e. to get to an outcome - finding a problem), then why are you on the bicycle…?

Lots of people bike for fun. Some people do intense rides to test their cardio and try and beat their last time. Others do it to explore their city / area, where they see more than being in a car but cover more ground than walking. If it’s truly a casual bike ride, you might take the same route you’ve done 100 times but notice things you didn’t before, because you were too focused on going from Point A to Point B.

A lot of these realizations may be practical. Maybe it’s finding a faster route from Point A to Point B for future rides, when you are trying to get somewhere as fast as possible. For longer rides (journeys), you may discover new rest stops that allow you to regain your energy, without having to restart your ride or cut it short.

It’s clear that 1st gear - or coasting - has a lot of utility beyond just tackling a hill. When you’re not expending all your energy towards achieving an outcome, you can accomplish a lot.

A Finite Ride

No bike ride lasts forever. Lack of energy (burnout?) may be the #1 cause, but even in 1st gear, it’ll get dark, you’ll have other commitments to attend to, etc. And when you’re no longer able to ride your bike, or you’re only able to do it with a purpose (Point A to Point B), what will you miss the most?

Despite all the things you can do by riding a bike, there’s also an important segment to remember. A handful of people just bike because they like the feeling of biking. Not exercising, going from Point A to Point B, exploring, but just biking.

I recently had a knee injury from soccer and it’s sidelined me for the season. Now that I can weight bear on it + do most of my day-to-day activities, the main thing I miss is just being able to play the game. Not win / compete, get cardio, etc. I realized I can supplement those things with other experiences (stationary bike, playing video games, etc.). But I can’t supplement the feeling I get when I’m playing soccer.

Conclusion

I’ll end this post with another prompt, which this cute video of Bob the Hamster reminds me of. What happens if you realize that you’re on a stationary bicycle? You’re expending energy trying to get from Point A to Point B, trying to accomplish a specific goal that you can see in front of you, but something happens and you realize you were never moving.

In this example, you never get the enjoyment of being in 1st gear or the enjoyment of just being on a bicycle. You’ve simply expended energy and time without accomplishing anything notable.

I don’t think I’m on a stationary bicycle, but the analogy of being on a bike has helped to challenge my natural next step and what I think I should be doing. Even if it doesn’t change my course, the act of asking why I’m on a bike, which gear I’m in, and whether I’m heading to a destination or just biking, has helped to open my perspective to options beyond the default path.

Mastery or Adventure

Am I a grill-Master? Or am I just enough of an adventurist to grill everything I see?

I have always been taught to think a certain way about both personal and career growth. While many view entrepreneurship as offering a new path (freedom of time, income ceilings, etc.), in many ways it parallels this traditional perspective. It’s about time for a change.

First, some context behind the writing of this post:

  • I pivoted my agency (Divisional) into a marketplace last August and have spent the past year iterating and finding the right model that scales. Overall, I’m happier with the work and impact that we’re making.

  • Despite improvements, I’m overall no longer excited about this space and problem. For my fellow founders, this is a major revelation as there is no more ‘pivoting’ to figure out the model. Rather, there is a need to replace it with something new*.

  • The lack of excitement has led to an uphill battle; for the past several weeks, I have felt burnt out. I’ll take this in a separate post, but I think it’s important to note, as it likely frames how I view my path forward.

  • Unlike past experiences with burnout, I’m personally quite happy — I have a great friend group and a loving partner (with whom I have recently moved in with). This has challenged what I put value in, and forced me to look holistically at my situation and potential ‘next move’.

With that groundwork, I can share the structure of this post and its summary:

  • I have been conditioned from a young age to view personal / professional development in terms of milestones. To be in the top 1%, you need to be good at solving problems that are in front of you + planning for what’s next.

  • A lot of this perspective has adapted from how our parents’ generation operated; instead of ‘grind until you retire’, it becomes ‘grind in your 20s / 30s’, whereas other tenets like ‘build wealth to get freedom’ have remained the same.

  • To deflect from this, I can embrace what I call the Adventurist path. These individuals reject 5-year visions and believe you should never stop exploring. This entails revisiting your values, making space for introspection, and then starting to explore those areas of interest

  • In contrast, the other group (Masters) believe you should explore until you find the trifecta of being good at something, enjoying it, and having the market reward you for it.

  • As I’m entering my period of exploration, I don’t have an answer yet, but I have learned that modelling for efficiency is key to any business, and that only I can know my values (the ‘why’) to discern what problems are worth solving

Chasing Milestones

From an early age, I have been conditioned to optimize towards certain outcomes. In grade school (K-8), it was about being top of my class; getting the best grades, leading in extracurriculars, etc. But there was one inherent idea behind it all: mastery.

Yes, I tried to get the best grade on a 3rd grade Social Studies paper to please my parents and get recognition from my peers, but I wouldn’t claim that the pursuit of how the pioneers colonized Canada is inherently important to my future success. Instead, getting a good grade on a paper (and eventually, on the course as a whole), indicated to me that I was likely to be a high achiever. I would progress to do better on Grade 7 papers (also on pioneers, I think…?), evolve into Grade 10 history (still, something about Canadian history and pioneers…) and finally into a Grade 12 university credit on Globalization (finally, no pioneers!) that I could use towards my university applications.

Rinse and repeat; college is meant for learning and exploration, but I often found myself doing something to optimize for other things. Get good grades to open doors for grad school and recruiting, and towards the tail end of my degree, to minimize the work I needed to do (in class) so that I could pursue other ventures (starting an agency with a good friend).

The older I got, the less academic the pursuits became, but the core thought was still there. Get good internships to craft a good narrative, enabling me to get recruited by better firms, and eventually use that signal to start my own company. Even company building is a means to an ends; I build to scale and eventually have an exit (acquisition, sustainable cash flow, etc.).

The traditional perspective

This is what I’ll refer to as the ‘traditional perspective’. And the older I got, the more I started to question some of the tenets that this perspective embraced:

Grind in your 20s to enjoy life later

Work hard in your 20s so that you can have greater opportunity in your 30s and have to work less hard later in life. The enlightened perspectives here will argue that this time is spent on things that complement work, i.e. starting a family.

I’m very excited for the family planning stage of my life, but this seems a bit counterintuitive. Work hard so that you can continue to work (in raising your kids) so that they will have a good life and you can relax in your… 60s? In a sense, work to master your domain so that your outcomes will mean you no longer have to invest (work) as aggressively later in life.

I’m also in a very privileged position, as I know many of my 1st / 2nd generation friends are. Our parents had a ‘survival’ mindset; immigrate with $0, make a living for you and your family, and sacrifice — so that they don’t have to. Fast forward, I was able to take a lot of risks (with my parents as a safety net) and now have the freedom they wanted me to have. But I’m foregoing that freedom to enable my kids to have that freedom…?

Build wealth to give yourself freedom

Money is the greatest key to having freedom, as it removes a lot of the constraints that will prevent you from accomplishing your dreams. Working hard and building wealth - where a core feature is its ability to compound with investments, interest, etc. - so you aren’t prohibited in your future pursuits.

I’m a capitalist and a (fiscal) conservative. I love making money, and can attest that having money allows me to make better decisions with my business, personal life, etc. I’ll pay more for a gym membership so I can exercise when I want without waiting. I’ll hire more people so my company can grow faster and accomplish more.

I’m also limited by capital, either in reality or mentally. The reality parts are quite clear; I can’t buy the nicest house on the block, take the best vacations, or do anything I want without having to worry about working (making money). The mental parts are more subtle; I don’t buy the more expensive flight that leaves later because I don’t think it’s worth it (based on how much money I have), even though I can. I do grocery runs myself because I think it’s a rip-off to pay for (and tip) an Instacart person, when the time savings are excessive when compared to my hourly rate.

When do I really accomplish freedom? There will always be a bigger house, a nicer meal, etc. I can set benchmarks and have a rough idea of what gets me 80/20 freedom with financial choice, but that marker moves when I have kids (college funds, extracurriculars, vacations, etc.) or have evolving needs (cottage, home gym, etc.). Wealth gives me freedom, but pursuing it to have optionality for future freedom feels a bit like saving for a house that doesn’t have a price on it.

As you can tell, a bit of critical thinking left me with lots of questions. So, I reached out to my mentors, friends, etc. to get some answers.

Some of them were very practical:

“You can’t plan your next step without a goal. What do you want, specifically, in 2-3 years? How much money do you need?”

Others were very theoretical:

“Find what you’re most interested in and do that. Optimize for happiness and check the other boxes (i.e. money) when you need to”

The former led to spreadsheets, akin to this post, and the latter led to reading books like The Pathless Path and posts like Quit Your Job.

What does the non-traditional path look like?

The adventure approach

Those who reject the traditional perspective have some fairly hot takes:

  • You shouldn’t have 5-year plans or visions

  • You shouldn’t try to have 1 thing (i.e. job) check all your boxes

  • You should never stop exploring and asking questions

I call this the Adventure Approach. In this perspective, you are permanently ‘exploring’ and constantly trying to do things that energize you and reflect your interests. Contrary to what you might think, it doesn’t mean living the 4-Hour Work Week, adopting the F.I.R.E. movement, and travelling the world**. Really, it just means that you reject the idea of mastery.

Someone adhering to the Adventure Approach might do the following:

  1. Work in sales at Procter & Gamble; their goal is not to be the #1 rep but instead to hit their quota and abide by their work-life boundaries.

  2. Spend a couple hours every day in an art studio, learning to get better at a specific style of painting and trying new things.

  3. Realizes they love painting and wants to do more of it — this requires moving to New York to be more engrossed in the art scene.

  4. Quits their job (and cuts back spending) to make this move, taking a lower paying (but more flexible) sales job at a smaller CPG company

  5. Gets a ton of validation from creating art but realizes that people can’t discover art the same way that they discover music, leading to difficulties in distribution / recognition

  6. Builds a platform for art distribution, quitting their sales job to go all-in, and raises $3M to make it happen

  7. Through talking to more artists, realizes that the income inequality in New York is the biggest barrier, and that’s caused by a lack of political awareness & flexibility

  8. Steps down from the startup and joins a political activist group

As you read through that, you might have been expecting that this person has no interest in money and traditional success, when in fact, they accomplished what a lot of people would have loved to do (raising money and building a hot new startup). The difference is that it wasn’t a linear path from being a blue chip sales rep to being an entrepreneur; it was a journey that involved following their interests and giving 100% to the activities they chose.

This group believes that mastery is actually detrimental to following your value system. Think of someone who is in the top 1% of their craft, and needs to constantly train and upskill to move up (or stay in) the top 1%. Even if they lose interest in that craft or find better alignment in another area, they aren’t able to pursue it. I.e. it is rare to see a doctor, who endured several years of medical schools (including getting in), residency, specialization, etc. leave to pursue their passion of running a bakery.

It’s fair to say that this perspective is a bit extreme, but some of the greatest inventions & companies we know were built from radically new approaches. One could also say it’s a build-up of several generations; if you were the first person in 250 years to be able to ignore the pursuit of wealth, would you?

Exploring

When I started reading The Pathless Path and sharing my findings with friends & mentors, not everyone was enthused. Funny enough, the author (Paul) actually warns about this; but since several of the folks I talked to had actually read the book (or were at least familiar with the concept), I could give more weight to their opinion.

To my surprise, they actually thought the adventure approach had a lot of merit. You see, these people aren’t in favour of the traditional approach either. Mindlessly plugging away at a career on a set path is not fulfillment, even if you can become quite good at it. This group recognizes that when (if) you decide your current path is not the right one, you need to explore.

This means being introspective and actively asking questions about your path. Determine why you have fallen out of love with it, and what factors have influenced that shift. The rough framework for exploring is as follows:

  1. Revisit your values — Understand what motivates and drives you. What do you look for in work and in your daily life? Has that changed?

  2. Make space — The easiest option is ‘quit your job’ but that often isn’t possible (or necessary). Instead, it may involve clearing evenings or dropping activities that you are not strongly tied to (i.e. not your day job / income) and leaving space to introspect.

  3. Start exploring — Have conversations with people who are doing things you find interesting. Begin to pursue some of the activities that you have had on your backlog.

So what is the purpose of exploring? This is where the adventure approach and mastery approach diverge, and how the latter begins to resemble how one might traditionally view personal & career growth.

The mastery approach

Adventurists (as I’ll refer to them from here on out) will argue that exploration is not a phase but a persistent state. You pursue what you find interesting and dive into those interests, uninhibited by a longer term goal or track that would prevent you from making changes. Make money when you need to, spend time on what matters the most to you, and avoid delayed gratification.

As we saw earlier with the P&G sales rep, it can lead to big changes that will have a significant effort (positive or negative) on your life***. However, it doesn’t mean that you necessarily devalue traditionally important things (i.e. wealth), so long as it aligns with your value system and interests.

Advocates of the mastery approach, or Masters, view exploration as a temporary stage. You explore to get re-rooted in something that you have conviction in, and thus are able to commit 100% to. While exploration for Adventurists is rather open-ended, for Masters, the goal is to discover something that fits the trifecta:

  1. You are good at it — think top 1% or the ability to get there

  2. You enjoy it — it gives you energy and you can spend lots of time on it

  3. The market rewards you — it is well-paying and/or there is significant demand for it

This perspective more closely resembles the “do what you love” approach to life, where work-life balance is overshadowed by work-life integration, since trying to compartmentalize something you want to relentlessly pursue will lead to a suboptimal outcome.

Most importantly, Masters believe that while a specific project (job, startup, etc.) may not always align with your skills and values, there is always a project that will. By continuing to invest in that skill and take on projects and experiences that grow it, you are able to see gains from mastery. Each step is therefore tied to your past skills, and getting better at it opens new doors, and typically ‘better’ opportunities (lucrative, fame, etc.).

The hard pill to swallow with Masters is that to master something, you need to go all-in on the activity that you’re pursuing. You can’t get into the top 0.1% of something by doing it part-time or switching your focus every 6-12 months. It involves sacrifice and delayed gratification.

Does that mean Adventurists don’t work hard? No, in fact you could argue the contrary — if they’re incredibly passionate about a project and have higher value alignment than a Master, they may put more hours & effort in than them. They may see better outcomes. But their approach comes with a lot of risk and uncertainty.

While the minutia of decisions and how it’s interpreted may change, I found the basis of the two approaches to diverge on:

  1. How they view exploration

  2. How they view skill & personal development

It’s important to note that the outcomes of someone in each group can vary drastically. Masters aren’t necessarily obsessed with wealth building and fame, just as Adventurists are not hippies that pursue their own interests without limitations and live off the land. One trend I’ve found is that Adventurists are primed for adventure (hence the name) - they get bored doing the same thing and feel energized by tackling new things - while Masters are primed for mastery (again, in the name) - they want to get the best at something and get energy by continuing to invest in it.

(As a side note, I think it’s interesting that there can be diversity within a specific group but the core tenets / beliefs must be aligned. Some parallels to religion, i.e. Christianity and the Holy Trinity belief but practices & interpretations change by sect, perhaps…?)

So what does that mean for me?

You might be able to tell from this post that I have had something of a significant mindset shift, but my thoughts are not as clear as I - being a Type A planner - would like them to be. I know this chapter is coming to a close, but I don’t know what’s next. I’m actually not even in the full headspace of ‘exploring’, as I’m still committed to seeing my current chapter through.

I will share, however, some observations that I’ve had in the past 8 weeks of contemplating my options:

Model for efficiency, even when you don’t have to

In my last full-time role at Shiftsmart, I told my boss (Rob) at the time that I appreciate him teaching me about ‘operations’. The company was a SaaS solution paired with a marketplace that enabled the sourcing, screening, training, placement, and completion of blue collar work to be done efficiency (think mystery shopping, checklist inspections, call centers, etc.). After a gruelling 4 months with lots of spreadsheets, blank stares when asked for numbers, and late nights that I brought upon myself, I told him that operationally heavy companies weren’t for me, but that I had learned a lot.

What I had potentially learned, I had not applied. The next 2.5 years of business ownership was a rollercoaster of being behind on financial modelling, over hiring (and firing too late), and generally running the opposite of an ‘operationally’ sound company. Of course, I’m being harsh; but it wasn’t until I told myself “I don’t want to be doing this anymore”, did I start to take a serious look at how efficient my company was and find big improvements.

I think anyone could ask themselves the same question as a forcing function: What if you only had 20 hours / wk to do the job you have now? How would you build efficiency into your job, set boundaries, and ensure you have time for your other commitments? I think a lot of people don’t recognize this, and thus fall on the opposite end of the spectrum — working long hours, sacrificing health / relationships, and trying to ‘grind’ through it.

For me, this phase included realizing that Virtual Assistants (VAs) overseas could do the bulk of my work with the right training and guardrails and that we didn’t need as much technology as we needed (read: spend less per month on software). I only came to this conclusion when I was forced to; and I’m seeing lots of entrepreneurs (especially the venture-backed ones) born in the ‘boom’ of the past few years learn this the hard way.

In the future, I aim to approach everything with a “how would I scale this” mindset, with a mentality that Rob taught me:

  1. Do the work yourself

  2. Find a way to do it faster (tech / automation)

  3. Train someone else to do it

  4. Find a way to monitor their work

Only I know my value system & goals

A recurring theme of ‘advice’ from my friends & mentors is that they’re working with incomplete information. While I often tell this to people I give advice to, I often miss taking it myself.

No one knows what’s going on in my head, what motivates me, and how I operate. Ask the smartest person what you should eat for breakfast tomorrow, and they’ll likely have a slew of follow-up questions (”do you have high blood pressure”, “are you a vegetarian”, etc.) to create a well-constructed opinion. But their suggestion of shashuka won’t factor in that you have a fear of eggs due to a chicken incident while visiting family in Arkansas, that you have an odd distrust of Middle Eastern cuisine due to a bad falafel you ate 3 nights before, or that you are fasting due to a medical procedure and the whole thing was a trick question to begin with!

The ‘hard’ questions are ones that you need self-awareness to answer, and while others can help you ask the right questions, only you will have the answer. I aim to get some of these answers by reflecting on my experience, talking to people I’m interested in, but most importantly by sitting with the thoughts and seeing how I feel. At the end of the day, there are no wrong answers, just decisions that take you along a long unwritten path.

If you are also exploring and have thoughts on this post, please message me! And hopefully it won’t be another year until this blog lives again…

*I am not planning to leave Divisional or shut it down. Instead, I’m aiming to operationalize it and downsize my involvement so that I can make space for other things (explore). This might mean a sale, bringing on a new partner, etc. Rest assured (to my clients & team), there will be no drastic decisions. As of October 2023, we’re profitable and it’s taking a lot less of my time than it was before.

**These approaches to life are definitely a deviation from the ‘traditional approach’ but I don’t personally align with them and therefore didn’t see the point of covering them in this post. I think the idea of retiring earlier (F.I.R.E.) by working harder & smarter is just a faster route to the same outcome that the traditional path gives you. Although I have a lot of respect for people who find this is the right path for them!

***One tenet that is consistent across both Adventurists & Masters, despite it not being obvious with the latter, is that growth is not linear. For both paths, there will be ups & downs. I’ve spoken to Masters who realized they were mastering the wrong thing, i.e. in in an industry that was dying or in a skill that had a low ceiling, and had to adjust. This is a key problem is hyper-optimization; looking for the biggest win in your next thing can limit your ability to discover something new that initially has low return but exposes much better outcomes.

Comparisons

Photo of Trevor cheesing at the top of a mountain in Switzerland while taking a lunch break.

Skiing is the one area where I enjoy comparisons, since I usually come out on top 😎

The pandemic taught me a lot about myself, but exiting it (or the peak, at least) may have taught me even more. Re-engaging with friends and seeing life kick back into full speed meant that I had a goal; to adjust to the same trajectory that pre-pandemic Trevor was on. The following are some thoughts that - despite my > 1 year hiatus from writing - have persisted throughout COVID and continue to be top of mind today.

If you’re just skimming, here’s a quick recap of this post:

  • There are many ways to create an average, and it is typically a result of my social circle. I generally consider myself above average, but struggle when comparing to the average of different circles.

  • Comparisons are a dead end, and never lead to happiness. I’ll always want more, and any rationalizations only yield temporary gratification.

  • Setting my personal values helps to ground me to realistic goals, and focus on things that give me happiness and fulfillment. I may not think I’ve made a lot of progress, but I have.

  • Only I can determine what I value; there are no objective truths, as they are crafted by my circle and how I choose to interpret them. If I can decide on these and hold true to them, then external comparisons should have considerably less impact than they do today.

If you’re not, welcome aboard :)

The average

One thing I disliked about watching the news during the pandemic was not the ‘doom and gloom’, but the repeated statistics. I felt like my municipality, province, and country was constantly being compared to others in terms of how well we were doing. How many cases we had, the number of deaths, the number of hospitalizations, etc.

It became quite clear that there was an average — and for the start of 2021, Canada trailed it. We were on the tail end of developed countries in getting vaccinations, and our constant jumping in & out of lockdown raised the question of whether our faithful political leaders really knew what they were doing (we realize now, they did not).

The average for countries was not the only point of comparison. Within Canada, certain provinces trailed others, where Quebec introduced curfews and restrictions that exceeded what Ontario had in place, and were significantly greater than Alberta. We can further break this down — Northern Ontario (with a more dispersed population) meant that restrictions might be taken less seriously, compared to myself as a resident of Toronto, where I sat in my condo wondering when things would improve.

The same concept for COVID can be drawn to everyday life. We create and observe averages in friend groups and social circles, looking at education, fitness, material wealth, and other factors. For some people, myself included, their ‘average’ is actually much higher than the general populous.

Take for example, marriage & family planning. For a social circle that begins their career right after graduation at 18, settles down in their early 20s, and begins to have kids by their mid-20s, the odd friend who postpones marriage until 30 is an outlier. In contrast, take a social circle where everyone pursues a high-powered profession (i.e. law) which requires several years of school. The average for marriage might be closer to 30, and having kids, closer to 35.

Neither average is inherently good or bad. They are both based on the sample they are compared to. My social circle might look at parents in their mid-20s and be quite surprised, struggling to rationalize their decision. The same parents (and their respective social circles) might look to my friend group and shake their heads, claiming that we have wasted some of our prime child-rearing years, in terms of energy & attention.

I think of ‘the average’ often, because while I acknowledge that my life circumstances are above average in many areas, I still feel a lot is to be desired when comparing it to my average.

Happiness from comparisons

What value does comparing oneself have? In many ways, it’s a narrative that we can believe in. It’s much easier to convince myself that I’m on the right track & things are going fine, if I can find a benchmark that validates my current progress.

Income is an easy factor for comparison. I can feel good knowing that my income means I am well above average, but Canadian census data isn’t where I draw comparison. For my general profession, Growth Marketing Managers raise the bar, but that number would be considerably higher if I drew comparison to fellow Dorm Room Fund alumni or tech entrepreneurs with more than 5 employees. At some point, I start to look the average, or even worse, fall below it.

So what does that mean for comparisons? I can conclude that I’ll never be happy if I am constantly comparing myself. There’s a popular video from Justin Kan about the hedonic treadmill and how he was unhappy after selling Twitch to Amazon for $1B(!!!), because his friends were running Dropbox and Facebook at much higher valuations.

I wholeheartedly agree, and find that I often rationalize my progress when conducting comparisons. Here are some examples that provide temporary gratification:

  • “I’m 25 but that person who is doing better is 30”

  • “They have a higher valuation, but my business makes more revenue”

  • “They make more revenue, but my business is solving a more unique”

All of these splits are ways to ignore the root question — why am I doing what I’m doing? Am I motivated every day for a purpose that surpasses a comparison or end goal set by someone else?

Setting my values

Intrinsic motivation & goal setting is not an easy feat. It often requires introspection that can be uncomfortable, challenging beliefs that may have been driving me for several years. I recently went through this exercise, as a variation of what is recommended in this post, with the goal of moving beyond outcomes and looking more directly at activities that align with my values.

Here are some of the things I noticed:

  1. Integrity is my most important value. I want to make sure that in anything I do, I’m doing right by everyone involved. This can include clients, employees, friends, family, etc.

  2. I won’t sacrifice everything for a bigger outcome. There is a ‘win at all costs’ mentality for some founders, neglecting health, relationships, etc. for the growth of their business. I don’t see this as being worth it, mainly because I’m not enthralled by the massive outcomes that some founders shoot for.

  3. Family planning is my #1 goal. If I fast forward 20 years, I would most unhappy if I’m not married with kids. Everything else (body image, material wealth, etc.) takes a back seat to this.

In doing this exercise, I was able to draw some surprising conclusions about my path & the way I was operating:

  • The ideal outcome is smaller than I thought. I often thought $10M by 30 was the goal. In fact, I could accomplish all of my goals with closer to $2M, and picking some goals over others means that I could require even less.

  • I’m building what is right for me. Reflecting on the past few years, I’ve made less linear progress than I would’ve liked. However, many of the decisions - trying new career paths, pivoting a successful business, etc. - were a consequence of building what I was truly excited about.

  • I’ve made a lot of personal progress. I was chatting with a friend recently, reflecting on our lives ~ 4.5 years ago. Work-wise, I’m a much better entrepreneur than I was then, but more importantly, I have so many things (happy relationship, strong support system, etc.) that I didn’t have at that point, and took years to cultivate.

What determines a value?

My final point on the note of comparisons is courtesy of several conversations with my girlfriend about making progress, working hard enough, and feeling productive. To set the stage, we were talking about the contrast between our high schools - hers in Owen Sound, where completing a lap year was common, and mine in Mississauga, where it wasn’t a question of going to university, but which university you got into.

I mentioned how it likely marginalized someone in my friend group if they didn’t want to go to university, and it would take time to adjust / find friends who created their new average. She flagged the opposite; a group of college-bound students where one decides to pick university and gets ostracized, which I balked at; wouldn’t this new average be a higher one than the last? A group of trades students cheering for their friend who is becoming an engineer, like Ben Affleck did for Leo DiCaprio in Good Will Hunting?

She humbled me with a simple observation: what if higher education wasn’t a value in that friend group? Specifically, if going to university was seen as the wrong / bad choice in that group? I caught myself and thought about other parallels for my average — where making more money wasn’t valued or raising capital wasn’t valued. How would this affect the comparisons I put so much value in?

I typically think in a world of absolutes and objectivity, so a question like “is making more money a good thing” is never given second thought. I realized that to be happy in my path, reassured with the trajectory but also the effort I put in, I needed to reexamine what my values were absent of external comparisons, and focus on what I truly saw as having longevity and contributing to my satisfaction.

Conclusion

Comparisons can be a great motivation but they can also be toxic. The most toxic of those comparisons are ones that I make myself to others, with no prompting. Those are the comparisons that keep me up at night, instill doubt into my path, and make me wonder if I’m truly putting in the effort that I should be to be successful.

I’ll end this post with two observations:

  1. The people I value in my life (support system) root for me regardless and want the best outcome for me. That outcome is one that I need to determine alone, not by external comparisons.

  2. My values will change over time, as they did in the reflection from 4.5 years ago. The best I can do is try to live my life according to the values I recognize today, and reassess at regular intervals.

P.S: Thank you to everyone who pinged me about writing and missing my blog posts - namely my Uncle Don, my old neighbour Jordan, and my mom. Here’s to re-establishing consistency!

From IC to Manager

The Divisional team as of February 2021 :) We need a new team photo.

The Divisional team as of February 2021 :) We need a new team photo.

When I used to think about career building, it was always “I want to be the best at X”. For me, that’s growth marketing, but for others it might be sales, venture capital, engineering, etc. I looked for opportunities that would maximize my exposure to new problems and new skills (i.e. master the T-Shaped Marketer).

Recently, I realized that being the best at something doesn’t always align with building my career, and that there are diminishing marginal returns in trying to go deeper on a given skill. Very quickly, those looking to build a career need to decide whether they’ll stay as Individual Contributors (IC), or shift to the Manager mindset.

In this post, I’ll break down my transition from IC to Manager. Quick summary:

  • Gaining responsibility often means managing people

  • Delegation is necessary due to lack of bandwidth and/or expertise

  • Your employees need enough context to do their job well, including having the right expectations for what the outcome should look like

  • Building process is necessary to growing an organization and having parts of the organization (your team) run without you

  • You don’t need to be a great manager to be successful, but you do need to acknowledge it

Career aspirations: what do you want to be?

Looking back at my college experience, I always thought of career progression as getting more responsibility. I’ll start as a Growth Intern, progress to being a Growth Marketer (IC), and then a Growth Marketing Manager. Eventually, I’ll gain enough responsibility to lead the growth function as the coveted ‘Head of Growth’. One question I asked myself during college was “how could I start as a Growth Marketing Manager VS an entry-level position?”.

I believe this mentality carries weight outside the startup world as well. The goal is always to gain experience, which leads to more responsibility, bigger titles, and more compensation. However, I rarely asked myself “what is required of a Head of Growth?”.

I’ve seen many people make the mistake of thinking that being the 1st growth hire at a startup means that you are, by default, the ‘Head of Growth’. In reality, the idea of being the lead/manager of something implies that there are other components of that function aside from yourself. The ‘Head of Sales’ at an early-stage startup is an Account Executive unless they also manage other people (i.e. a Business Development Rep, or BDR).

Think about a startup that has 50 employees and a Growth team of 4 people. The Head of Growth oversees that team and runs growth for the company — this likely means setting the budget / goals per quarter and the strategy on how they’ll meet those goals. Assuming there are many campaigns required to execute on that strategy, it’s unlikely that the Head of Growth is executing on all of them. In fact, it’s likely that the Head of Growth needs to delegate the execution of those strategies to their team of 4 people.

What makes a good manager?

Delegation is a tricky thing. For a long time, especially as a freelancer, I took pride in executing on strategies. I felt that I could write better copy, manage channels, and overall do better work than other people. However, I realized that I would always be blocked by two things:

  1. Bandwidth — If I have 40 hours in the work week, I can only execute on so many things. Soon, in order to take on more work and grow in responsibility, I would need to rely on other people.

  2. Expertise — The T-Shaped Marketer concept holds true for a reason; it’s hard for someone to be an expert at everything. Sure, I can run a growth campaign that spans multiple channels but it’s unlikely that all elements of my campaigns will be better than if they were execute someone who has expertise in that specific area.

Therefore, delegation is a necessity. To delegate well, I needed to be a good manager. This meant giving the right amount of context, setting expectations, and building process so that my direct reports would be able to execute to the level that I wanted them to. Let’s dive into each of those concepts in more detail.

#1 Giving enough context

Our brains are hardwired in a “do” mentality. You are given a task / problem, and your gut reaction is “how do I execute this well”. In shifting from IC to Manager, you need to ask yourself different questions when looking at a set of problems. This might include:

  • Who has the skills to complete this task well?

  • What could go wrong with their execution of this task?

  • How much time do they need to complete this task?

In each of these areas, there are ways for a manager to make a mistake. Failing to delegate to someone with adequate skills means that the task won’t be completed properly. Forgetting to set fail safes / checks means that even someone who can do the job well is still prone to making mistakes and producing a suboptimal outcome. Lastly, budgeting an insufficient amount of time for a task means that your direct report will have trouble hitting the given deadline, or hit it by producing suboptimal work.

To be a good manager, you need to give enough context. When delegating a task, I usually think through these points and include it in the task summary. Recently, I’ve been making Loom videos to capture my thoughts while going through the task, so that there is a lower chance that things will be misinterpreted.

#2 Setting expectations

I’d like to think I have a pretty high bar for the work that I do. Some might relate to the scenario where you do a task, feel like you did a bad job, and then get praise for it being done well. This is a very dangerous feeling to have when shifting to a managerial position. It often leads to outcomes like:

Deliverable A needs to be done in a couple of days but I’m not sure that Person A will do it as I want. I think I’ll just do it myself. If it’s done poorly, I’ll just waste time having to correct it anyways.

Work delegated will often be done worse than if done yourself, especially if it’s the first time. There are many reasons for this, but often it boils down to lacking the right context (see #1) or knowing that people in junior positions to you don’t have the same level of experience, so it won’t be done the same way.

This doesn’t mean that it can’t be done to a certain standard. Good managers know how to set expectations that are reasonable, and give feedback so that suboptimal work can be done better in the future. It may take more time up front, but it’ll pay off in the long run — it’s likely that the person you delegate work to will master it, and even become better at completing it than you are!

#3 Building Processes

I run a growth agency that has grown (haha) to being 12 people. We’ve taken on 6 interns to help with execution, and will be hiring a couple of full-time people in the coming weeks. That’s almost 20 people working as a team.

I won’t be in every Slack message, Zoom meeting, or Asana task card. In fact, one of the biggest challenges was removing myself from client-facing work entirely, by hiring Growth Managers I could trust to lead the engagement. But there’s a crucial mistake that I made early on in this transition: even people you trust won’t do what’s stuck in your head.

I’d like to think of most work like cooking. Let’s say I have an amazing recipe for pork belly tacos (I do). I know all the steps by heart, including how to marinate the pork, the extent to which to blend the chili-lime sauce, and when to start heating up the tortillas so that it’s a perfect meal.

I then tell the recipe to a good friend, who is a talented chef. I explain the recipe and how great it tastes, and encourage that friend to make it. I even buy the ingredients for them, so that they can make it right now!

My friend looks at the ingredients and back at me, putting on an uneasy smile. It’s likely the outcome will be nothing close to what I’m expecting, and worse yet, I won’t be able to explain why since I didn’t given any instructions.

This is similar to management, but not nearly as tasty. A good manager invests in process: writing down how to do something, building checklists, and testing that process with their respective direct reports. The manager gives feedback on areas that can be improved, and tweaks the original process to accommodate for areas they missed (lost context, #1) or what the end product should look like (expectations, #2).

We’re in the middle of this with Divisional, my growth agency. What started as building process for project management in January has blossomed into building process for other members of the team, so that the project management processes are followed. My original Project Manager is our Head of Operations, and manages our Project Manager, who manages the rest of the team. I’d like to think I was a good manager, but managing people who manage other people is a whole different ball game!

Do I need to be a good manager to be successful?

A lot of people suck at management. Everyone complains about having a boss they don’t like, for a multitude of reasons. Some amazing ICs hit career snags when they’re promoted into management positions and can’t keep the team on track. This is the sad reality for most organizations: we tell people that good performance will be rewarded with more responsibility, but don’t teach them how to handle that responsibility.

Thankfully, you don’t need to be a great manager to be successful; but you do need to realize that it might not be a good fit for you. Some of my friends who run other ‘agencies’, actually run ‘consultancies’ — outsourcing 80% of the work but still being the core brains of the operation & client facing. A consultancy can make lots of money and give the freedom that a lot of people crave; your hourly rates go up until you’re strictly advising people for a LOT of money.

Similarly, there are pathways in organizations that reward phenomenal ICs. I learned about Toucan last year, and their ‘Engineering Growth’ system. Great engineers can either progress into being managers / directors, or continue to get more compensation / responsibility as Architects / Chief Architects. I’ve heard recently that this is a more common structure than you’d think (Coinbase, Stripe, other large orgs have them) — accommodating talented people who have different skill sets is key to a successful organization.

Conclusion

I believe that shifting from IC to Manager is the hardest thing to do. While there are many shortcomings in our education system, it usually at least teaches you the theory of how to master a given craft. However, I’ve never seen programs that teach you how to be a good manager. Even MBAs, to my understanding, are meant to give you the fundamentals in business and not how to manage people.

Are you a manager or looking to make the shift? I’d love your feedback on this article and other areas you’d like to read more about.

Strategy and Operations

I’d predict that Beth from The Queen’s Gambit will exit chess to become a Strategy & Ops lead at DocuSign.

I’d predict that Beth from The Queen’s Gambit will exit chess to become a Strategy & Ops lead at DocuSign.

I remember in college when ‘strategy’ was the coolest thing for a business student to do. Not sales, marketing, or other functions that make a business run. Strategy superseded those roles; you aren’t just driving the company’s growth, you’re plotting how to drive the company’s growth. When I first started a career in tech back in 2015, strategy felt like it was the end goal.

Earlier this year, when I felt that freelancing as a growth marketer was becoming less challenging, I started to search for new roles. ‘Strategy’ roles were of immediate interest: General Manager of a line of business or Special Projects at a high-growth tech company. It would leverage my growth knowledge, but challenge me to think outside of my comfort zone.

It also, in most roles, encompassed ‘Operations’: now that you have an idea, how do you put it into practice, make it efficient, and ensure it’s scalable? I searched for 3-4 months while running my growth agency, having some of the most absurd interactions with supposedly reputable startups (which I’ll write about soon). I also had some amazing conversations: some early-stage startups where the role was less defined, and some ‘growth stage’ startups where I’d have to prove myself before getting big responsibility. At the end, I was grateful to find a fit with Shiftsmart, a Series A startup that helped companies source, hire, train, and manage shift workers.

In this post, I’ll talk through my experience in a ‘Strategy and Operations’ role, what I learned, and why, in the end, it wasn’t a long-term fit. Quick recap below:

  • Operations is a skill set that allows you to efficiency scale an existing system — I thought it was necessary for me to learn so I could scale my agency + build other ventures

  • Company, manager, product, and role are all considerations in what makes a great fit, and why I signed on with Shiftsmart

  • I needed to get my hands dirty to succeed at an early-stage org — it’s often 30% Strategy and 70% Operations

  • If I’m not naturally motivated / excited by the problems I’m tackling, I won’t succeed in tackling them

  • If I can’t connect the skills I’m learning to immediate uses / goals, it’s hard to justify learning them (even if they’re worth learning in general)

  • Opportunity cost varies for everyone: a good decision for me could be horrible for you, and vice-versa

Why Strategy & Ops?

I’d like to consider myself a fairly well-rounded founder. I’ve held a variety of growth marketing roles (my specialty), but I’ve also done sales, revenue operations, and (as with any early-stage company) a mix of everything else. I recognize I have my blind spots: I don’t know how to code, and while I understand design/product I don’t have any formal background in it.

Most founders who aren’t on Indie Hacker realize they need to make trade-offs; you’ll never be great at everything, so what do you need to know to succeed as a founder? For me, that felt like operations. I could stand up a business and make it profitable, but how do I scale it to 5, 10, 50, 500 employees? How do I remove myself from the day-to-day and effectively manage other functions?

This is why I drifted towards Strategy & Operations. I wanted to understand how an operationally heavy company worked, how to improve my operations skill set, and how to incorporate those learnings into current & future business ventures.

Shiftsmart felt like a perfect fit: in terms of company, my direct manager, product, and role. Let’s break down what exactly that means:

Company

Shiftsmart was well-established ($22.5M in funding, ~ 60 employees), which meant there was structure and I didn’t have to compromise on compensation. They were also early enough that there was lots of white space to tackle: if I could make a case for tackling a problem, it was likely I would get the responsibility + resources to do it.

Manager

In any role, your direct manager is a huge part of whether the role is a good fit or not. I had known my boss, Rob, for a few years as a good friend + mentor, and his background was incredible (built operations at Airbnb & Siteminder, a unicorn Australia tech company). I respected him a lot and felt like I could learn a lot from him, which made this a great fit.

Product

Shiftsmart is tackling a very interesting space: labor. Like Uber, Instacart, or other labor-driven companies, this comes with its own set of unique challenges. I knew first-hand as a freelancer and agency owner that fractional / part-time labor had grown significantly in the last 5 years. This was even more pronounced for blue collar workers: work 20 hours at Target, 20 hours at Amazon’s warehouse, and another 10 as a delivery guy. Shiftsmart was creating the first marketplace where you knew whether a worker was reliable, what they could do, and gave you the tools (both ops + product) to easily hire & manage them.

Role

My boss was very generous with my offer — I had actually applied for a Biz Ops / Analytics role on the team but wasn’t a fit, and he offered a 3-month, full-time contract where I could join the team (growth / ops) and see where I fit in best. This was perfect for me: I could transition my agency to part-time, feel out the org / culture, and hopefully convert to permanent full-time if everything worked out. More importantly, the role itself was operations-driven (‘how do we screen / evaluate our workers’), something that I had never done before.

Strategy (and Operations)

In the first 6 weeks, I fleshed out a few growth projects for the team (referral program, retargeting) and built the screening process for a new client. Given how fast Shiftsmart was growing (my team didn’t exist in March), my role quickly evolved to be solely screening (recruitment) driven. How do we build a process to intake and evaluate workers at scale, across multiple roles?

I told my boss when I joined that an area of improvement was closing out projects — I could stand up and take a project 80% of the way, but transitioning it to other team members and building processes so it could be efficient was a challenge. This was a similar case with screening: ‘strategy’ was less of challenge. I made a matrix to evaluate workers, built scoring criteria, and found ways that we could screen workers at scale.

‘Operations’ was a different story. During our weekly stand-ups, my boss/team often had questions that I didn’t know the answers to. I’d start a project without a clear set of metrics to track, and as a result, avoided a system where I could easily see what went wrong + how to track it. So when I built a call center that had a full team of agents and made thousands of calls per day, identifying the biggest areas to improve was a taxing challenge.

Prior to this role, I had always glorified Strategy & Operations. And perhaps I was right — I’m sure the same role at Google, Shopify (where I used to work), or other big companies would be drastically different, where thinking through problems and creating plans would be the big obstacle to overcome. But at Shiftsmart (and I’d assume at other early-stage orgs), ‘Strategy & Operations’ was 30% strategy and 70% operations. I never worked a shift on the platform. I didn’t call 20 applicants myself to see how the script would work. Getting my hands ‘dirty’ was essential to succeeding in such a role, something I didn’t realize until later.

What makes a good fit?

My contract was extended a month (4 months in total) to tackle screening and see if I could run the function long-term for Shiftsmart. The last 3 weeks were especially gruelling, due to problems that I’d imagine a lot of people face in high-impact roles at high-growth companies: imposter syndrome, not focusing on the right problems, and leaning on my team/resources less than I should have.

The conclusion I came to, after a long chat with my boss and several good friends, was both illuminating and confusing. I confirmed that I knew what needed to be done to succeed in my role. I also confirmed that while there was a skills gap, it was NOT one that was insurmountable. But I wasn’t happy with my role / the work that I was doing, and I felt like I was burning out. So where does that leave me?

My friend Thenuka gave me some great advice that I’ll paraphrase poorly below:

“You need to be excited about the problems you’re tackling. Calling them interesting or worth solving isn’t enough. If that’s not the case, you’ll have a hard time.”

The team, product, boss, and organization can be amazing. In a lot of ways, Shiftsmart was. But I didn’t get energy / get excited from the problems that I needed to tackle. I could acknowledge they were interesting and worth solving — I could even see how solving them would make the job an even more rewarding one. But if it wasn’t a problem that I was naturally motivated to solve, any obstacle would be 10x harder to overcome.

The second area to focus on is “What is worth learning… Now?”. Remember in school when you’d take a mandatory class/credit and not realize why it was necessary? I always found those courses especially challenging. If there wasn’t a practice / visible (near-term) use for the knowledge, it was harder to justify learning it.

I believe that work is no different. It amazed me how efficient Shiftsmart was as an organization. Each department functioned like its own company. Unlike my prior experience in B2B SaaS, almost everyone came from consulting, banking, or an operationally-heavy company (Uber, Lyft, etc.). I can say with the utmost certainty that ‘operations management’ (to simplify it) is a skill that is VERY useful and one that I’ll need in the future.

But do I need it now? In the next 3 years? It was harder to make this argument with myself, which made it harder to justify the role. I needed to know why learning a useful skill was good FOR ME, not good in general. I have no doubt that I’ll revisit it in the future, but only once it’s necessary for me to grow + accomplish the goals I set out.

Opportunity Cost

A final point here is around opportunity cost. For every decision I make, there are other decisions I could have made. Returning to school and leaving a high-growth company with amazing culture was a decision I made. Choosing to start an agency instead of joining a startup was a decision I made. Picking Toronto as my home base, and not New York City, Los Angeles, or San Francisco was a decision I made. They all come with an opportunity cost, and I’m aware of that.

Maybe in a different life if I was entering tech and dead set on strategy/ops (i.e. ‘exiting’ from another firm), I would have stuck around and persevered. But opportunity cost is real: since August, my full-time job (Divisional) became a side hustle which made me more than the new full-time job I had chosen. The team grew from 3 to 10, we hired an amazing full-time PM, and our client base expanded. In Q1, we’ll be making 3 more full-time hires and scaling to 15 employees with 100% revenue growth from Q4 2020.

I’m a growth marketer and a founder. I know what I’m good at, what I need to get better at, and how that all plays into my 3-5-10-20 year goals. Just as some people leave their full-time jobs to pursue a side hustle that’s growing rapidly, I chose to revisit my side hustle, invest more into ongoing projects, and continue to build. That’s an opportunity cost that wasn’t easy to swallow, but a decision that I’m comfortable taking.

Conclusion

‘Strategy & Operations’ will forever be a sexy position. It’s cool to quarterback the growth of a company, especially if your past role / skill set makes that a natural transition. Unfortunately, it wasn’t the greatest long-term fit for me. But I’m forever thankful to Rob & the Shiftsmart team for giving me the opportunity, and I’m proud of what I built while I was there. And if you’re looking for a great place to work and love operational challenges, Shiftsmart is hiring rapidly. If you’re a growth marketer and looking to tackle new problems, drop me a note because we’re hiring rapidly as well!

Career growth

Grow as the vineyard grows, plants, exponential impact… I just really liked this photo!

Grow as the vineyard grows, plants, exponential impact… I just really liked this photo!

I’ve seen lots of articles (and written some of my own — here and here) on ‘choosing a career’. The act of distilling your passions, understanding what you’re good at, and trying different roles until you find something that’s a fit. This isn’t one of those posts.

Instead, I’m going to write on career growth — what happens when you know you’re in the right career path, but you struggle with how to grow, and what roles / jobs will optimize for growth. Quick recap:

  • 5 years ago I started in sales, then moved to growth (marketing), and finally ran my own business (a marketing agency)

  • I learned along the way what I liked / disliked about each role, and further refined what I’m looking for in the ‘ideal role’ — along with what I still want to learn

  • There are some personal skill sets I want to learn, and some company criteria that any employer will need to pass for me to take the role

  • Nothing is perfect: I’ll make the most logical decision I can based on information available to me, and hope it pans out!

Shifting motivations

For context, I’ll give some background on my path and where I’m at now. I started at Exposoft Solutions, a small event management software company, back in 2015 as a sales rep. It was my first real job, and also my first exposure to tech. I loved sales; it rewarded hard work where ‘the sky’s the limit’ on how much you could earn based on closing deals. It led me to joining Shopify Plus a year later in sales, which is where things took off.

What I liked about sales: High earning potential, ‘hustler’ mentality, leveraged my people skills.

What it was missing: Lack of ‘hard’ skills; prospecting, conducting discovery calls, and closing took effort but it didn’t leverage hard skills like coding or financial analysis.

This led to an interest in marketing — I knew how to convince someone who was interested that our product was a good fit, but how did they become interested in the first place? I went down a rabbit hole on tech marketing, reading HubSpot’s blog, Neil Patel’s blog, and more. I took on some contract roles at Turnstyle Solutions (Yelp WiFi) and #paid doing email marketing, content marketing, and even some SEO work. Eventually, while I was working at Shopify, a role at Clearbit came up in ‘Growth’. Fast forward a couple of weeks (August 2017), I got a job on their 22-person team and moved out to San Francisco to join them. Fast forward another year, and I was faced with the following dilemma:

What I liked about growth: Becoming ‘good’ at certain channels (paid ads, email, etc.), ability to grow any business, direct impact to organization’s bottom line.

What I disliked about growth: Specifically, working for someone in an Individual Contributor (IC) role… I wasn’t involved in leadership discussions (company vision), I was tied to a pay check, and I didn’t have a lot of agency (based on boss’ directions).

I moved back to Toronto, toyed with a few startups ideas + did an accelerator, but finally settled on running an agency (Feb 2019), which eventually morphed into Divisional. We do growth for early-stage startups. I manage a team of contractors of around 5-7 people and work remotely from Toronto. Sounds great, right? Well, fast forward 1.5 years and here’s where I’m at:

What I like about running an agency: Flexible hours, pays very well + high earning potential, exposed to different startups and growth problems.

What I dislike about running an agency: Limited mentorship / learning (all my employees are contractors), less challenging work, not building something ‘bigger’.

Talk about an exciting 5 years, am I right? So let’s see where that leaves me…

Taking Stock

I know that I don’t like solely being an individual contributor (do work that someone tells you to), but simply ‘being an entrepreneur’ didn’t cut it for me. Services businesses are great — by leveraging contractors and working with clients, I can make 2-3x what I would as a full-time employee. However, and I know this is cliche, it’s not just about the money.

I’m still early on in my career. Making money is great if I’m learning, and specifically, learning what I want to learn. Building a services business is NOT easy — hire contractors, build workflows, find ways to scale your sales, etc. I have an incredible amount of respect for people who are doing it. But those aren’t skill sets I want to build (right now). Instead, I’d rather focus on:

  • Managing people: How do I recruit and retain good talent? How do I convince them of my mission and help them grow? You don’t get this with contractors, since they’re hired for a specific purpose + with clear outcomes. Even as an agency, I’m not accountable to anything my clients do aside from the work I’m contracted for.

  • Cross-functional skills: I want to build a software company one day. This means understanding product and engineering, customer success, sales, marketing, and everything else. It also means understanding how other people think, including those roles but also people with different backgrounds (i.e. MBA vs 5 years in startups). Simply working as a ‘growth marketer’ doesn’t build these muscles, it just makes me really good at growth. And while I can build a full career around that, it’s not what I want to do.

Great! So I’ve narrowed down some key focus areas for what I want to learn. Now, how does this factor into finding a job?

Find great companies

Unfortunately, being 2+ months into my search, not that easily. Why?

  1. Problem Space: I could get the two items above at a lot of companies. But which ones do I really want to work for? One criteria here is ‘problem space’ — is the problem this company is addressing, and their solution/way they think about it, really amazing? To give an example, I’ll help a tech company that automates SMS for Shopify stores all day as an agency. There’s no way I’d join them as a full-time employee.

    1. Possible areas: Education & retraining, workforce management, community building / happiness

  2. Team: I love working with smart people. Don’t get me wrong, I work with a lot of smart people now — but not the same way like when I was at Clearbit, Shopify, or other companies. It’s more of an agency-client relationship than a colleague relationship. Why does this matter? Well, working with very smart people means I’ll get exposed to how they think, learn from them, and share my knowledge. This is a BIG part of career growth.

    1. Possible proxies: Serial entrepreneurs, operators who have built other businesses, people with extensive background in a specific area (i.e. the vertical of the company)

    2. Sad reality: None of these are perfect. I recently worked with a crypto founder (made tens of millions of dollars) who was easily the worst person I’ve ever worked with in my life. Success != good to work with.

  3. Compensation: I recognize that running your own business (agency) compensates me more than a lot of full-time jobs would. I know that this is a trade-off I’ll have to make — greater learning for a pay cut. However, I don’t think this is a binary; I’m not sacrificing my lifestyle and worth just for learning. There should be a balance here where the company compensates me fairly, but I’m also incentivized to perform.

    1. How this manifests: Evaluating my monthly burn rate, going rate for people with similar skill sets (read: NOT education, years of experience, or other poor proxies).

  4. Culture: This is a VERY tricky subject that I could write a full post on by itself. Culture for me means a team that cares about what they do and is empathetic to other members of the team. I don’t want to work for a company that ‘grinds’ from 7am to 12am simply because. Performance should be evaluated based on merit — pick a number, outcome, etc. and own it.

Buckle up.

I’d like to think I’m a very logical person — I want to make the smartest decisions I can, by maximizing the due diligence I do and the amount of thought I put in. However, nobody is perfect. I’ve mentioned before (this post) that the best I can do is optimize based on the information that I have available to me. The rest will figure itself out in the future.

I want to find a company that I can work at for 2+ years, help them build something great, and develop as a professional along the way. There are perfect scenarios here. There’s also a scenario where I join, notice flags within the first 3-4 months, and quit before the half-year mark. Nobody wants this, especially me. But here’s what I do know: I have a great skill set and will put my heart and soul into any role I’m taking on. Where that leads me, who knows?

Rethinking routine

The street I run on. Also my view.

The street I run on. Also my view.

Gyms are closed. Restaurants/bars are closed. Almost everyone I know is working remotely, due to their physical office being closed. This may not be the norm for the foreseeable future, but it’s what we’ve got to deal with for now.

Despite all the chaos, one thing has stayed consistent for me: sleep. My bed hasn’t moved, and while my energy levels fluctuate, the activity (or inactivity) of sleeping stays the same. So building off my last article on my COVID lifestyle, I’m going to explain how I’ve changed my routine around sleep to be happier and more productive. Tl;dr:

  • I’m getting up earlier (6am). I think it’s a good thing to do.

  • Exercise, increased productivity, and more down-time are the benefits.

  • How to do it? Watch this video — get up at the same time, phone away from bed, water.

Get up earlier.

“I’m a night owl” is what I used to tell my parents in high school when I’d sleep around 1am or 2am. “You can’t change your internal clock” is what I told myself throughout college when waking up at 11am was acceptable if I didn’t have class, so long as I was productive between the hours of 11pm and 3am to make up for it.

Now, I wholeheartedly disagree with both of those statements. I haven’t read up on it, but my assumption is that millions of years of operating on ‘sun = waking hours, night = sleeping hours’ system had a dent in how humans operate, biologically. You can argue that you’re nocturnal, but I’m going to expect you to prove that you have both heightened hearing and smell.

This all comes back to routine. I’ve come to accept that waking up with the sun (6am) and going to sleep at a reasonable hour (for me, 10pm) has a great impact on routine. Some reasons why:

  • Exercise. Running improves quality of sleep and can boost performance. Midday fatigue is a problem. Coffee can be the solution.

  • ‘Flow state’. My routine prior to this was waking up around 8am, breakfast, and then starting work around 9am. It takes an hour to get into a ‘flow’, and then I have maybe 1.5 hours until I’m thinking about lunch. By getting up earlier, I can be into work by 730am and get a solid 3 hours of work done before being interrupted by lunch. Not to mention, co-workers are likely offline for the first 1.5 hours, so I can get proper work done.

  • Ending earlier. In my old routine, I would get anxiety around 6pm. This is because everyone is starting to shift to dinner/evening mode, but I still had a ton of things to do. This puts me in a difficult scenario: I have to make tradeoffs between my social life / relaxation so I can feel more accomplished. Waking up earlier combats this; by 6pm, I’ve already been working for 10-11 hours, so I can feel more at ease to take a break.

Okay fine. So how do I start?

This YouTube video was incredibly helpful. I read it somewhere (Nat Eliason’s blog, I think) and the results were immediate. Main points:

  • Have your phone away from your bed, so you need to leave your bed to stop your alarm.

  • Leave a full glass of water beside it, and drink it when you get up.

  • Close all blinds in your room (blackout if possible).

  • KEY: Get up at the same time everyday, i.e. 6am. Go to sleep when you’re tired. Eventually, your body will adjust to the new routine.

  • KEY: Have a motivator to get up. I.e. for me, it’s to get a run in before the day starts. Have an accountability buddy!

What about weekends?

I haven’t followed my own advice, as I got up around 10am / 11am yesterday and today (Sunday). There are consequences to that. I have similar anxiety on weekends because I’m being ‘unproductive’, so I try to sporadically add work periods to get ahead.

This is hard when I get up at 11am. Factor in brunch, and it’s probably 12pm before my day gets started. I’m lethargic, and don’t have a clear plan for what I’m going to do. I soon get bored and procrastinate, which leaves me feeling even more unproductive. Case and point? It’s 6:41pm on a Sunday and I’m writing this post instead of doing work.

However, if I got up at 6am, that wouldn’t be the case. I don’t think weekends should be treated like the weekday; do work if you feel like it, do something else if you don’t. So for me, maybe that’s working from 7-10am and then going on a hike. Maybe I do another hour before dinner (5-6pm), and I’m still in bed by 10pm. I’d imagine I’d feel more rested, plus my routine doesn’t change for Monday.

Cool. Now what?

Send me a message on whether you’re going to try this, if you’re already doing this, and/or if you have a strong dislike for this article. I’ll aim to update this post in a few weeks with my results.

COVID: Friends, Lifestyle, and the Greater Good

While my SF trip (Mar 11-15) was likely a poor decision, I’m still glad I made it!

While my SF trip (Mar 11-15) was likely a poor decision, I’m still glad I made it!

Let’s get the obvious out of the way: COVID is real. It’s more than a ‘bad flu’, there are 1.7M+ cases worldwide, and young people are not immune. Wash your hands, don’t touch your face, stay inside, and avoid physical iterations.

Now for the more interesting part: what effect does this have on my life? I’m not a healthcare worker (but they are honestly incredible) nor am I precariously employed (check this if you are). So the effects of COVID are second-order; they likely won’t affect me directly but the environment affects how I act, think, and live my life.

Summary of this post below, otherwise read on!

  • I’m expecting stronger 1:1 relationships due to limited group interaction

  • I’m finding it difficult to get new hobbies, and expect the same for those who can’t do their old ones (i.e. travel, clubbing), or didn’t have one to begin with

  • I think COVID is having a greater impact than other ‘greater good’ causes because it affects everyone, hits close to home, and affects my day-to-day

  • I see COVID as an opportunity*

Real friends

I’ve written extensively on the value of building my tribe, finding community, and investing in people who matter to me the most. But COVID brings this into the spotlight — not just for those concerned with existential questions and how they spend their time, but for the greater population.

Before COVID, how many of your friends were ‘practical’ friends? The kind that you only saw when you wanted to hit the clubs, play a sport, or do a specific activity. The kind that you only talk to when things are going well, quieter than usual, or if you’re in their neck of the woods. Some might say that these aren’t practical friends; but if someone is only associated with a feeling, activity, or location, then what are they?

The bulk of my good friends are not in Toronto, so transitioning to only seeing them on FaceTime (or Houseparty, what’s that?) was not a huge challenge. But I do wonder for readers, how are you dealing with this? I’d assume people who live to work will be perplexed with the newfound free time and disconnection from co-workers. Students in their junior or senior year might be faced with the question: who will I really keep in touch with after college is done?

I’ve made it a point of calling my friends more frequently. Usually not with a scheduled time, but just out of the blue on a Tuesday evening or Sunday afternoon. For those that don’t gravitate to apps like Houseparty, I wonder if COVID will lead to stronger 1-to-1 relationships opposed to those that are a consequence of group commitments and/or interactions.

Lifestyle

Have you ever asked yourself what you’re ‘known for’ amongst your friends? Some people are gamers, others are health nuts, some party hard and others travel frequently. COVID has called that all into question. The world travellers — people known for frequent vacations, or maybe an intentional decision to live in a foreign country — are grounded. The club-goers need a new outlet; alcohol still runs aplenty (being essential services) but it’s a lot harder (and less rewarding) to rally a crew over Zoom. You also can’t flaunt wealth or physical traits as easily if there isn’t a medium (club, restaurant, etc.) to do so.

I had trouble answering the question of ‘what I’m known for ‘ before COVID. I have an interest in comedy, but never gave stand-up a try. I’m a soccer fan but haven’t played seriously in close to a year. I cook a fair bit, but it’s hard to plan exciting meals for the week when going to the grocery store is a terrifying ordeal. Seriously, someone fired shots at my local grocery store last month — I really am safer inside!

If anyone else is in my boat, our options have decreased significantly. If you can’t do a hobby / activity by yourself (or virtually) and without going outside, you’re out of luck. So, this makes me wonder:

  • How are people who are known for certain hobbies they can no longer do adjusting?

  • How are people who didn’t have a specific lifestyle adjusting to the lack of options?

The Greater Good

I’m glad the government is starting to crack down on people who are violating social distancing rules, and has set restrictions in place to discourage gatherings (i.e. closing bars/restaurants). It’s their job to protect the greater good — which includes vulnerable populations like the elderly and those with pre-existing conditions.

I’ve also been impressed at how people have banded together and enforced social distancing via peer pressure (ironically). Even if you want to be the one defiant person who is breaking the rules, you need to rally your friends to make that happen. I.e. if I want to throw a birthday party, odds are no one would show up + I’d get a ton of Facebook messages saying how dumb I am for throwing one.

There’s a reason why COVID is resonating with me more than other social issues that also benefit ‘the greater good’:

  1. It can happen to me. 1/3 of hospitalized COVID patients are under the age of 40. Even if I likely can’t die from it, it’s very likely that catching COVID would ruin my month.

  2. It hits close to home. My parents are in their 60s, so if they were to catch COVID (God forbid), it would be significantly more dangerous than if I were to catch it. I feel like most people know someone who would be seriously affected by COVID, so it’s a ‘close to home’ cause.

  3. It affects my day-to-day. The longer that COVID persists, the longer everyone has to stay inside and avoid doing the things they love.

Global warming, poverty, and other causes don’t check these boxes like COVID does. So while I care about them, I’m not as incentivized or motivated to act as I am with COVID. It honestly fascinates me that COVID has rallied such a wide swath of the global population — rich, poor, old, young, etc.

This is an opportunity.

*As always, I’ll add a disclaimer before making a controversial statement: If you’re precariously employed, in poverty, supporting a family by yourself, etc. etc. then COVID (and a looming recession) is terrible, full stop. This isn’t an opportunity for you.

But I don’t think my writing caters to those groups. When I write, I write for millennials who have anxiety from choosing between multiple amazing jobs, people running their own companies and struggling to balance their social life, and tech workers who want to find a motivation / fire that their cushy 9-5 can’t provide. People who aren’t living paycheck-to-paycheck (I hope) or racking up credit card debt to make ends meet.

This privileged boat is the one I’m in; and I see COVID as an opportunity. It’s challenging the predictable growth that I planned for my clients and forcing me to be more creative; I’ve had clients churn and taken a real hit to my salary. It’s challenging my friend group, and who I make an effort to keep in touch with + support during this time. It’s challenging my relationship, and how I prioritize my significant other despite turbulence in other areas of life and a decreasing number of activities/options to keep us engaged.

I also see this as an opportunity for others… If you’re a new grad and historically depended on converting your 3rd year internship into a full-time offer, you might need to reconsider. Lots of internships are getting cancelled, meaning you can either settle for jobs that are still open OR push to discover new jobs that weren’t readily available via job boards, legacy hiring from your school, etc. For tech workers, there’s a push to ‘cut the fat’ at companies that are unprofitable / can’t be fuelled any longer by venture capital. Some of these companies are materially affected (Bird, Away, Ritual, etc.) while others are using COVID as an excuse to cut back (Everlane, Yelp, Clearbanc). If you were complacent before, this could be an opportunity to drive new value to your organization, lateral to more impactful jobs, and get the spark you were looking for.

Challenge —> Growth —> Opportunity.

Frugality

Omakase: The Japanese art of spending exorbitant amounts on food.

Omakase: The Japanese art of spending exorbitant amounts on food.

What do I really ‘deserve’ to spend money on? And before you ask, no, this isn’t a post debating the merits of fiscal conservatism and whether it’s unfair that I have more financial freedom than a family living under the poverty line. It’s more a growing thought around what, as a young professional, I should be spending money on given the ability to.

In this post, I’ll dive into how I view frugality, the pros/cons to being frugal, and how I think young professionals like myself can approach personal finances. For those skimming, my friend Adnan recommended I give a quick summary below, so here it is:

  • My parents instilled values of ‘frugality’ and ‘fiscal responsibility’ into my brother and I. The question is: how can I retain those values when it’s not ‘necessary’ to?

  • There are necessities in life (food, shelter, clothing), but it’s not a binary. My bar for shelter might be higher than others, and that’s something I need to figure out for myself.

  • Unnecessary categories / criteria to evaluate decisions against: wasteful, unreasonable price, done for social status / ‘to flex’.

  • I need to embrace frugality & fiscal responsibility for ‘the principle’ — it’ll help me live a more humble/fulfilling life, and enable me to teach my future kids the same when they’re even further removed from suffering / hardship.

If you’re still with me, let’s dive into it!

Immigrant Mentality

As I’ve written out in past posts (here), my family is pretty frugal. They owned the immigrant dream: coming with nothing and moving to middle-class / upper-middle class as my brother and I came into the picture. This was largely due to smart spending:

  • Short mortgage (<10 years) that was paid off early

  • No extravagant vacations; road trips to Ottawa, Gaspésie Peninsula (Quebec), Maritimes

  • Rarely ate out / ordered in (only special occasions, i.e. birthdays)

  • Modest clothing (lots of hand-me-downs), cars usually 10-20 years old

You get the picture. While my parents could’ve splurged on a lot of things, they instead chose a path of financial security. Through economic crises, my parents losing their respective jobs, etc., our family stayed well above water.

Fast forward to 2020: I run a marketing agency and don’t think about money as often as I should. I’ve picked Toronto as my home, over cities like New York and San Francisco, largely due to quality of life. I pay for a 1-bedroom apartment what I’d pay for a room + shared bathroom in those cities, while daily expenses (meals, coffee, etc.) are noticeably cheaper.

That also means that I’m more likely to spend the additional disposable income: eating at nice restaurants, going out with friends, travelling to those cities that I am otherwise missing out on. I want to live a comfortable lifestyle, but the ‘immigrant mentality’ weighs on me — what is comfortable and what is unnecessary?

Comfortable Necessities

Food, shelter, and clothing are considered necessities. If I am hungry, don’t have a reliable place to sleep, or am overexposed due to a lack of clothing, I should prioritize addressing those needs. It’s easy to think about this in extremes (i.e. poverty), but here are a few examples where that’s not the case.

  1. Food; Taking in-person meetings, didn’t pack lunch + don’t have time to go home —> buy food

  2. Clothing; Can’t find toque/gloves but need to go outside, buy them

  3. Shelter; Commuting to Toronto is noticeably draining, justify renting a place downtown

While the first two examples I gave made sense, the last one is definitely debatable. That’s why I like to think about necessities as a spectrum — what is a ‘need’ for me, might not be for someone else. I like having peace of mind when returning to my own place VS having roommates. I might buy better cuts of meat, cheese, etc. so a meal is more enjoyable VS meal prepping with a kilo of ground beef. So, to some extent, you could say that these are ‘comfortable’ necessities.

Where, then, do I draw the line? For something to be unnecessary, I think it should satisfy one of the following criteria:

  • Wasteful: My mind initially goes to food; getting the combo when I don’t need it, an appetizer when the main is enough, etc. That’s in a literal sense. What about in a figurative sense? Is it wasteful to get another drink at a bar when I don’t need it?

  • Unreasonable Price: Luxury goods can be well-priced; but are they justifiable in their own right? Should I ever pay $75 for a t-shirt? What about $30 on an Uber when I could likely take the subway?

  • Social Pressure: My friends influence what I want / how I see the world. Usually this is helpful, but can I recognize when it isn’t? Do I need a new pair of shoes just because they look nice? Take a vacation when I don’t feel like I need one? Just to flex?

What are the ‘action steps’ here? I have a couple of ideas that I’d like to share:

  • Eat out, but eat well. I’m not great at cooking, but I think I’ve improved a lot. My family got me a sous vide machine for Christmas and it’s an absolute game-changer (think an Insta Pot). My co-founder is also a killer chef, so I’ve tried to learn a lot from him. Now, I’m pretty comfortable cooking for other people. $50 is enough for some steaks, veggies, bread, bottle of wine, etc. A visitor stays for ~ 3 hours. Contrast that to a restaurant where the total is likely upwards of $75, and you’re out in 1.5-2 hours. So my goal is to cook more for people and spend more quality time.

  • Double-take. When I was trying to lose weight, a massive win was to take out a portion for myself, then put 1/3 back. I’d realize after the meal that it was sufficient. I’d like to try and implement that in my day-to-day. Whether it’s eating out, buying clothes, or planning trips, there’s likely a 75% solution that leaves me just as satisfied without wasting money.

Principles & Values

Saying I don’t need to be frugal is accurate. Saying I don’t need to be fiscally responsible isn’t. And that latter point expands into saying I don’t need to be humble. Circumstance shouldn’t change who I am as a person, and how I view material wealth. My parents suffered so I didn’t have to. This clip from Aziz Ansari sums it up pretty well…

These value carry through to family. I don’t imagine that my future kids would have any exposure to suffering. How will I be able to teach them these values if I don’t embrace them willingly? Will they take for granted the wealth that I’ve built, and lose the hunger / drive that my parents gave to me? If I can retain these values throughout my life, and eventually instill them into future generations, then I’ll be satisfied.

It also extends to me, personally. I want to be a humble person — it should be rooted in my thoughts / actions and how I live as a Christian. Unfortunately, when I know it or not, I’m often prideful and lose that sense of humility. I don’t hesitate to show people why the untraditional path and entrepreneurship is incredible. I’m not as quick to embrace frugality and humility in light of material wealth / success.

Conclusion

How did a post about saving money (d)evolve into a discussion on values and principles? I think it’s because ‘saving money’ and ‘being frugal’, for me, stems from values my parents gave me and that I want to carry forward. I don’t want to feel bad for spending money in light of more disposable income. But I also want to keep those values central to how I live and see the world.

Building community and lifestyle

Making time for friends and finding a support system is key. Above: Couple of hombres grabbing KBBQ in LA.

Making time for friends and finding a support system is key. Above: Couple of hombres grabbing KBBQ in LA.

This post is a build-up of thoughts over the past few months, many of which are embodied in past posts. See ‘Living or Visiting’, ‘Being Over-Productive’, and ‘2019 — Checking In’ if you haven’t already.

My generation is known for consumerism, being glued to technology, and being transient. The first two are a given; we love to shop, have more credit card debt and spend the most time online compared to other generations. The third is not as clear; what does ‘transient’ mean?

I’m referring to our tendency to switch jobs and move cities more than anyone else. In this post, I want to deconstruct some of the stereotypes about Millennials, why they make it challenging to build community, and how I think things could change.

“Your 20s are for exploring”

I’ve moved a lot in the past few years, spending a considerable amount of time in San Francisco and Los Angeles, with stints in New York City. For my peers, travel is embedded in the culture; it started with the 2-6 month graduation trip, and is supplemented with frequent vacations while working until another prolonged trip after the inevitable quarter-life crisis.

I used to idolize the ‘digital nomad’ lifestyle, where you can work while travelling the globe, meet new people everyday, and be unrestricted by monotonous routines. Now, I want a ‘home base’ more than ever. I hate the popular phrase “Your 20s are for exploring”; what does ‘exploring’ really mean? Is it travelling the world to expose yourself to new cultures, people, and experiences? Or is it the desire to reject a regular job/lifestyle, prove yourself different from the status quo, and avoid falling into the same tendencies (steady job, family, routine) that our parents did?

I spoke with a friend recently who was amazed by someone who rotated between NYC, SF, LA, and Austin over a 3-4 year period. It’s not the moving that I’m surprised by: I left San Francisco because I hated the city, and left LA because while I enjoyed being there, I didn’t fall in love with the city / want to call it home. My biggest question to these people is: Did none of those cities fit your criteria for a good place to live? In other words, are you even looking for a ‘home base’?

Maybe I’m guilty of putting too much emphasis on the idea of a ‘home base’, but allow me to explain. I think the reason I search for a home base is the following:

  • A consistent circle of friends with whom I have physical interactions with

  • A routine that involves fitness, hobbies, and some cultural elements native to the city

  • A place that I can furnish, alter to my liking, and call ‘home’

The first point stems from my personal experience: over the past few years, I haven’t ‘lived’ in one place for very long. This means that some of my closest friends are dispersed: SF, NYC, LA, and beyond. I don’t mind this, as occasional trips, video calls, and other forms of technology make me feel quite connected. However, it doesn’t replace in-person interaction. I’m not ‘plugged in’ to the Toronto community, partially because I haven’t made the effort but also because I don’t know if I’ll be here in 4-6 months. I think a home base would solve this problem.

I’ve heard the second point echoed by friends who also travel frequently, namely consultants or people in international roles. Fitness is a result of having access to a gym, which you don’t have when you’re constantly travelling. This changes when you stay in a city for longer than 2-3 weeks, but makes it challenging to build a routine involving sports leagues, companions to work out with, etc. I find hobbies to be quite similar; I like stand-up comedy and art, but exploring the city in search of those things without a strong friend group can be challenging.

The third point is the best embodiment of the nomadic / transient lifestyle. If I’m staying in a city for less than 6 months (which is often the case), why would I buy furniture, decorations, and other houseware? There’s no chance I’m packing posters and other items in a suitcase, given how cumbersome it is to travel in the first place. Since working, I don’t think I’ve ever called one place ‘home’ and made any effort to transform it into that.

Maybe some of these observations are more a fault of my own than a consequence of culture. I can make an effort to meet people and get ‘plugged in’ to my city. But why invest in something that you know probably won’t last? It’s not hard to make friends in a new place, but what about good friends? Ones that you actively want to hang out with, who reach out to you when they want to do things, and who you can invest in (with regards to vulnerability / thoughts) and they reciprocate?

More than anything, I believe this is a consequence of being busy / not having enough time. Which brings me to the second phase I hate…

“Your 20s are for grinding”

I hear this phrase time and time again, coupled with “I hate my job, but has to be done” and “I can chill when I’m older”. I think it’s ironic that the same people who love to travel and thrive on new experiences shackle themselves to jobs that do the exact opposite. I’ll put this differently, focusing on my own experience: I don’t want to ‘grind’ until I’m 30. I don’t want to work insane hours creating value for someone where I don’t benefit. I don’t want to reject desires for stability, time with family, and time for relaxation / mental recovery in the name of ‘the grind’.

Why does any of this matter? I think it directly relates to building community and the transient nature of millennials. I think about 30% of my life, and the value I associate with it, is tied to my career. The remainder involves family, relationships, and physical / mental health. To give a practical example, and this should be visualized as a pie chart for time/attention VS a hierarchy of value, see below:

  • 30% work

  • 30% relationship

  • 20% family

  • 20% personal health

How I approach my day-to-day should reflect this, but I don’t think that’s the case. First, my current schedule and level of prioritization is skewed too far towards career. Second, I don’t think the majority of my friends accept the 30% breakdown, and might believe it’s closer to 60% or even 75%.

Now let’s move from attention breakdown to my actual schedule. Assuming I wake up at 8am everyday and sleep at 12am, that gives me 16 hours each weekday. On weekends, I usually wake up around 11am and sleep around 2am. That gives me 15 hours on weekends. Overall: 110 hours a week.

Currently, my 110-hour week looks like this:

  • Work: 60 hours per week (usually 9-6, with time in evenings + weekends)

  • School: 15 hours per week

  • Family: 3 hours per week (I’m rarely home)

  • Relationship: 15 hours per week

  • Personal Health: 17 hours per week (TV, working out, eating, etc.)

What should this actually look like?

  • Work: 50 hours per week (keeping 9-5, plus some email / urgent items)

  • Family: 7 hours per week (being physically there, or engaging with them more)

  • Relationship: 18 hours per week

  • Social Life: 10 hours per week (intentional time with friends, getting ‘out of the house’, etc.)

  • Personal Health: 25 hours per week (same as before but add in reading, exploring city/hobbies)

Key differences between the two: spending 15 hours less on work, significantly more time on family, and re-allocating time from school (which I’ve revisited + will be done in the New Year) towards social life, my relationship, and personal health.

If you’re like me, then you also have a realistic time breakdown VS an ideal that you want to accomplish. The question I grapple with is: how should I alter my lifestyle to achieve this balance, and invest more heavily in building community and caring about personal/mental health? As with most of my posts, here comes the ‘action’ step.

Step 1 — Operationalize Work + Set Boundaries

I’m sure some of my friends reading this will laugh at the 60-hour work week. Jobs that really ‘grind’ you should lead to 90-hour or 100-hour weeks. So I’ll give some colour to this: running my own business means that I don’t have an office, regular work hours, or a boss that has expectations of me. There are tons of pros here, namely that I avoid the ‘face time’ issue and spend 90% of my work day actually working VS sitting in meetings, waiting on other people, or doing unnecessary tasks that are delegated to me. There are also lots of cons: if I drop the ball on a client and they churn, I lose 20% of my monthly salary. I need to define what ‘good work’ is: how much I should be working and what quality of work I need to deliver.

I think there are learnings here that can be applied to everyone. For starters, operationalizing work is a concept that I obsess over being in the services business, but can benefit people in full-time work as well. How do I handle email? What is my expected response time? How well do I communicate the work I’m doing? Do I have tools for prioritization and staying on top of things?

The short answer is yes, I’ve figured out parts of this. I use Asana to manage my agency work, set deadlines, and know what I need to accomplish. I use Superhuman for email; despite all the hate it gets, I find it easy to manage my inbox and avoid falling behind.

There are tons of areas where this can improve, so I’ll think aloud here:

  • Automation — I’m a HUGE advocate of Zapier, but I don’t use it as much as I should. What parts of my work take up ‘mental space’ that can be automated here? Is it reporting for clients? Maybe it’s payroll at the end of the month?

  • Prioritization — What are clients expecting from me + how do I become proactive about this? Instead of ‘firing from the hip’, maybe I should be blocking off parts of my week to plan ahead, do a post-mortem on campaigns + evaluate client relationships.

  • Outsourcing — MAJOR issue right now; what am I executing on that I don’t need to be? How do I hire freelancers effectively, try them out, and either pursue if it works out or end the relationship? We’ve used UpWork and personal networks for this, but I think there’s a lot more to be done.

The second area is setting boundaries. Even when I was working full-time for a company, how I carried myself and operated was largely defined by me. If my boss sent me an email that was non-urgent, how long did I take to respond? Do I respond on weekends? Do I even work on weekends? I have a friend in VC who used to work insane hours and now holds himself to a 9-5. He said he’s 10x more effective, because he respects the boundaries he sets for himself. His colleagues / boss know this too — no point sending an email on the weekend if he won’t read it until Monday.

Step 2 — Invest in people

Currently, I don’t put an adequate amount of thought / effort into social interaction. I don’t have a tightly knit friend group in Toronto, and that’s largely my fault. When life is non-stop, it’s hard to be intentional about keeping up with friends (both in your city and abroad) and meeting up with people. As I’ve mentioned in past posts, I have gone as far as trying to spreadsheet this to ensure I’m not falling behind. It works if I keep up with it, which I don’t. How does anyone do this effectively?

An older friend gave me this advice (paraphrased), which I’d like to implement a lot more than I do:

In your life, you have many 5-7 friends who you are very tight with. You interact with them on a daily basis, share your life, and support them where you can. On top of this, there’s another 20 friends who are in your circle. You enjoy hanging out with them, see them when you can, but it’s likely a weekly or bi-weekly thing. Then, there’s another 50 friends in the ‘extended’ network. You see them / interact with them every few months, but it’s usually a catch-up and not anything deep.

I currently do a horrible job of this. I’m good at crafting the ‘20 friends’ group but have trouble investing in them to have a strong support system of 5-7 friends. I know social engineering is frowned upon, but I’m genuinely interested in how I could improve this. I think the solution is to really double-down on the people I love hanging out with, who (in Marie Kondo fashion) ‘bring me joy’. This starts with messaging those people more frequently than I currently do, but it also extends to the depth of the relationship. Am I asking questions that are surface-level? “How’s X person, how’s your job going”? Or do I dig deeper into “What’s bumming you out this week? Any personal goals you’re trying to hit in the next month”?

I have some quirky ideas on how I can set this up, re: calendar reminders and other nudges (which I already do, to some extent). Regardless of how this plays out, I think the other thing to keep in mind is that these efforts will not always be reciprocated. More wise advice from another older friend:

You’ll meet people who you really vibe with, and you want to be good friends with. ‘Damn, that person is cool and I want to be best friends with them’. So you’ll message them frequently, ask to meet up, see how they’re doing, etc. Sometimes, certain people won’t reciprocate. They’re too busy, or they already have that 5-7 person group. No worries — just move on to other people who will reciprocate, and leave that door open.

That’s a hard pill to swallow, but I want to internalize it. I have message histories where I ask someone every week how things are going, and usually get a ‘sorry for the late reply, let’s catch up soon’. I do the EXACT same thing with other people, and I feel terrible about it. For the former, maybe I should accept it’s not the right timing (for now) and move on. For the latter, maybe those people should do the same for me.

Step 3 — Self care and saying NO

Another thing I hate about the millennial generation: we all love talking about the importance of mental health, self care, etc., but I feel like that’s rarely put into practice. How many times (and I’m guilty of this too) have you messaged someone “how are things going” and the response is almost always “good”. This is probably a consequence of the 5-7 friends VS 20 friends VS 50 friends buckets, but I think there needs to be a shift here. Why am I not more honest about when I’m feeling terrible and what I’m struggling with?

Making time for yourself is important. It’s even more important to know that you never have to justify it. I ran into this issue this past Friday: I had a rough week, was feeling pretty stressed, and (as an extrovert) my default reaction was to message people and try to hit the town. What ended up happening? I took a night off, stayed in + watched Netflix and got a solid night of sleep.

This was a great decision, and in the future should be coupled with reading, working out, and even cooking for myself. I don’t owe it to anyone to be ‘always on’, or to rationalize why I’m doing absolutely nothing on a Friday night. Making time to recharge, reflect on my week, and get my mind in order is key for self care.

Saying ‘No’ is a big part of this. I’m guilty of this on both ends: when someone reaches out asking for a call or to meet up, my default response is ‘of course!’. Likewise, I’ll spark conversation with someone (usually on their birthday) and feel obligated to pitch a meet-up or call. I almost want to get ‘say no’ taped to my laptop — most of the time these catch-ups or calls are unnecessary, as harsh as that sounds, and can be done over Messenger / asynchronously. One of the reasons I loved LA is that it was so easy to say ‘No’, since everyone was at least a 30-45 min Uber ride away! I want to reclaim my time / schedule, and I think it starts with intentionally making time for self care and saying ‘no’.

Conclusion

This was a super long post, so I applaud you if you made it this far. Like many of my posts, this is purely an exercise of self-reflection. I don’t mean to call anyone out or say that ‘my generation’ or certain viewpoints are ‘wrong’. The main point is that I find that millennials (myself included) are too obsessed with work and new experiences that we forget the value of community and healthy lifestyles. I’m also quite disappointed in the amount I’ve invested in my friends and intentioniilty here, and want to improve.

If you disagree with my thought process / approach, please message me (Facebook, Twitter, etc.) or shoot an email to trevor.sookraj@gmail.com, I’d love your thoughts! Thanks for reading :)

P.S: I also want to apologize for my writing hiatus; it’s been more than 3 months since my last post. These past few months of juggling my marketing agency and keeping up with friends/relationship/personal health have been incredibly challenging. I’ve never felt this drained or unhappy. Thanks to friends and family that have supported me throughout this — you know who you are :)

Is meditation worth the hype?

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It’s becoming hip to be introspective. Apps like Headspace and Calm have raised hundreds of millions of dollars, and have users across the world. In a hyper-connected world, the ‘contrarian’ thing to do is withdraw yourself from social media and a constant attachment to your phone.

A central part of this is meditation; taking as little as 10 minutes a day to close your eyes and empty your mind, focus on your breadth, and disconnect from the world. These meditation apps offer a nicely-designed interface, a soothing British narrator, and various modules to help with one’s day-to-day struggles. Some are on ‘anxiety’, others on ‘stress’, and one gaining an increasing amount of popularity: ‘sleep’. How effective are these apps and do we need to meditate to be introspective?

In this post, I’ll review my experience with meditation and the various apps, how it has benefitted me, and why I don’t think meditation is necessary to train the mind.

Starting to meditate  

I used to think people who meditated were weird — much like those who did keto or intermittent fasting, and look how well that turned out! The idea that you needed to remove yourself from daily activities and block off anywhere from 10-30 minutes to ‘clear your mind’ sounded folly. Even worse, the concept of using an app to do this sounded like the exact ‘tech trash’ nonsense that I desperately try to avoid (and am often susceptible to).  

Regardless, some turbulence in 2018 (head injury, breakup) pushed me to a limit where meditation seemed like a good idea. I started with Headspace, following the ‘basic’ module of 10 minutes a day, right before bed. Soon after, I added another 10 minutes in the morning, leading to a total of 20 minutes of meditation per day.

Within the first few weeks of starting to meditate, I saw two outcomes that made it seem like a worthwhile endeavour:

#1 — Quality of Sleep

Anyone who lives a reasonably high-stress lifestyle knows how hard it is to ‘turn off’ at the end of the day. I’m incredibly jealous of people (i.e. my dad and brother) who can fall asleep within 5 minutes of going to bed. For me, it takes anywhere from 30 to 90 minutes. I can pinpoint this to a ‘racing mind’ — thinking about what happened during the day, what I wasn’t able to accomplish, or thinking back to awkward experiences that I wish had gone differently (i.e. making a bad joke at work). 

Meditation was incredibly helpful for this. It forced me to focus on my body and let thoughts come and go. This is an important differentiator that I’ll get into later: meditation does NOT encourage you to block out emotions and thoughts. Instead, the idea is to simply ‘observe’ the thoughts that are going in your head, and not ‘chase’ them. With meditation, my sleep noticeably improved.

#2 — Mental clarity

I’m not a morning person, as hard as I try to be. My morning routine typically involves stumbling out of bed, checking my email, and frantically trying to organize my day. Successful people all have their own routines — you can check out The Proof by my buddy Adrian to see how Mark Cuban, Tim Draper, and other entrepreneurs tackle wellness. Meditation stopped my ‘busy mind’ and forced me to settle my body after waking up. This helped me when getting into the office, as (while I still needed coffee) I wasn’t rushing to any specific task or waiting for my brain to ‘wake up’.

I was a Headspace subscriber for a full year, having meditated for 28 hours and sometimes as consistently as 12 days in a row. This isn’t to gloat — I genuinely found that meditation improved my lifestyle and the amount of self-reflection I did. However, I stopped using the apps and meditating in general around 2 months ago.

Meditation isn’t for everyone

I can agree that the mind, like the body, needs to be trained. But like the body, I’ll disagree that there is ‘one right way’ to train the mind. I love lifting weights, but someone can be just as happy (and even healthier) by solely doing cardio or freeweight exercises. Similarly, I don’t believe the mind needs meditation to grow.  

To further explain that, I’ll dive into some of the ‘cons’ to meditation that I found in my year-long journey. There are valid rebuttals to these (that I confront), but I hope this gives some context around how I see meditation. The caveat: with the body, I can refute arguments like ‘your workout isn’t great’ by saying ‘I lift more than you’; unfortunately, the mind is more subjective, so won’t get into that ;)  

#1 Not the universal cure

For physical workouts, there is a time and place for everything. If I only have 20 minutes, I won’t do a full workout, as that might take me more than an hour. In fact, it’s probably hurtful to try doing the full workout, as I’ll feel unaccomplished by the end and possibly even miss muscle groups.  

Meditation is similar; if I had a long day where I’m incredibly tired, I’ll probably be dozing off during meditation instead of doing it properly. For another scenario, if something during the day really irked me, I found meditation to be equally ineffective. I.e. as hard as I tried to ‘empty the mind’, those emotions still dominated my body.

Rebuttal: “Once you get better at meditation, it’ll be easier to do it despite emotions/thoughts”. I think that’s like saying “Once you get better at Crossfit, you’ll start seeing results” — most people won’t make it to the stage of ‘being good enough’, so is it really an effective tactic if the majority can’t utilize it properly?  

#2 Carving time

We’ve all been there: you wake up at 9:15am despite having set alarms at 2-minute intervals from 7:45am through 7:57am. You’re feeling groggy as ever, and the day is off to a terrible start. Let’s meditate?!

No, I don’t think that’s a good mentality. I’m sure it’s possible, but I think it’s weird to grab a phone booth / room and try meditating for 10-15 minutes in the middle of the work day. Another example: work is done and you’re heading on a date, but you have some emotions flowing (anger, anxiety, etc.) that you can’t pinpoint. Let’s meditate on the subway? No, that sounds weird as well.  

Rebuttal: “You have to make time to meditate, even when it’s hard”. That’s how it becomes effective” — again, majority of people aren’t going to put in this level of work. Even with the body, you see benefits from working out + cardio almost immediately. Hard to defend an activity that only gives return after X amount of effort.  

What’s the solution?  

I’m not denying that meditation has its benefits, and can be a great fit for some people. However, I need a solution that gives me the same start & end to my day, while being more versatile throughout daily activities. Maybe it’s in addition to meditation — but there should be another solution.  

And there is a solution: writing. I tell everyone that they should start a blog; it’s an activity of self-reflection that helps you organize your thoughts in a way that’s understandable by readers (aka people with no context). You also get the added benefit of dialogue. I absolutely LOVE IT when people message me about recent posts, sending their thoughts and even challenging me on certain ideas (this one took a lot of heat).

However, I recognize that it’s not the best solution for a lot of people. Maybe you’re scared to put your thoughts out there, for fear of what others might think. Or more likely, you’re not sure if anything you’re thinking is worth reading. I’ll cut the BS — both those fears are probably valid. I put out posts that get 400+ views, and some that take me a few hours to write and get 30-40 eyes on it.  

This doesn’t invalidate writing as a method of self-reflection. Whether it’s a moleskin notebook you keep in your desk or a word document on your computer, writing can be a huge help. It’s the one activity that clears the mind, by dumping everything you’re thinking onto paper (or… screen?). Writing can be a stream of consciousness, a structured argument, or a combination of both. You can also write for 5 minutes a day or 2 hours a week, whatever works for you.

Where do I start?

I recognize that ‘writing’ is a bit too general, and I try my best to make these posts actionable. First, you can check out Writing Well on how to formulate your thoughts in a coherent way (if you’re planning to blog). It takes about 30-45 minutes to get through, and it’s entirely free. I don’t follow all of this, especially since blogging is more of a personal reflection activity for me VS something to gain followers/a brand, but it’s super helpful.  

You can also check out David Perell’s course on writing — it’s more geared towards people who want to become a content creator (blogger, podcast, etc.) but I’ve heard nothing but good things about the course and the outcomes of the students (i.e. published posts for 30 days without fail).  

That aside, here are some pointers on how you can start writing:  

5-Minute Journal

This is by far the EASIEST way to start writing. My friend Kanwar recommended starting a 5-minute journal about a month ago, and I have never missed a day. Sure, I sometimes miss a morning or night, but it’s hard to argue that you don’t have 5-minutes to pull out a notebook + paper and jot down your thoughts.

The journal works like this: you write three headings in the morning: “What I’m grateful for”, “How I’m going to make today great” and “Affirmations about myself”. I add (3) bullet points for each. I.e.

Grateful: A strong friend group, self-control in eating, a flexible work schedule

Great: Hold my fast until 1pm, workout, message (2) people that I really value in life.

Affirmations: “I’m a good son”, “I will achieve my fitness goals”, “I will make time for people that matter to me”.

At the end of the day, you wrap up with another two headings: “What made today amazing” and “How I can make tomorrow better”. See below for sample bullet points:

Amazing: I did XYZ for a client, did 20 minutes of cardio, had a good conversation at work

Better: Make time to write a blog post, plan my calendar in advance, wake up by 730am

I rarely achieve all these ‘daily goals’. It’s also hard sometimes to come up with things I’m grateful for and why today was amazing (if it sucked). However, this ‘micro feedback loop’ is working wonders in my day-to-day. It reminds me of what I set out to do, kicks off + ends my day on a good note, and summarizes how I’m feeling.

Stream of Consciousness

I haven’t really tried this one, but I’m bullish on it. If you don’t like writing, try doing this as an audio recording instead. Whenever you’re feeling a flow of emotions/thoughts, grab your notebook and write / talk for 5-minutes non-stop. This can be ANYTHING: who’s bugging you at work, why you’re disappointed in yourself, what you love about life. Don’t be afraid to ask yourself questions in this ‘stream’ and either answer them or write them down for later.

You’ll find after 5 minutes it’s hard to keep the same thought going. That’s because most of our thoughts + emotions are reactions — once they’re put in a logical framework / reflected upon, 90% of the time they don’t have any ground. The remaining 10%, you can set some ‘next steps’ on what you should do to address the situation.

Conclusion

Meditation is great, I won’t argue against that. However, it’s not the ‘cure-all’ that apps like Headspace and Calm make it out to be. I’d say it’s no more effective than following keto as the #1 solution to losing weight/becoming fit — it might work, it might not, but either way you might learn some things about yourself that inform future activities + decisions.

Do you meditate? What other strategies do you use for self-reflection + keeping yourself grounded? Email me at trevor.sookraj@gmail.com or message me on Twitter or Facebook with your thoughts.

Living or Visiting? (Los Angeles)

One of the live music shows I got to see (Hollywood area).

One of the live music shows I got to see (Hollywood area).

I have a goal of living in a number of cities / countries before I’m old. Not visiting — ‘living’ is a very different concept. Anyone that’s done a Southeast Asia, Europe, etc. trip can tell you that. In the span of 3-4 weeks, you whiz through 5+ countries, countless cities, and try to do as much as you can.

I don’t really like ‘visiting’ places. Even given a full week, I feel like I’m pressured to ‘do things’ with every waking moment. This was the case my first time visiting Los Angeles, in summer 2018. It was a short trip from San Francisco, and those (3) days were packed with tourist attractions, trying new restaurants, and being able to say I had ‘done LA’.

This post is going to dive into my mentality towards ‘living’ in a given area, drawing attentions to the qualms I have with travel and my tl;dr on Los Angeles (spoiler: I wouldn’t want to live here long-term).

What’s the ‘LA vibe’?

In an effort to change things up, I thought I’d try LA for a few months. I moved here this past May, and will be returning to Toronto in the next week. San Francisco left a sour taste of California in my mouth, and I wanted to give the state another chance. LA definitely met the bar!

When you think of LA, you probably think:

Beautiful people, lots of sun, and the epitome of ‘West Coast’ living

What you should think is:

Geographically disperse, good food, tight-knit friend groups

Attractive + interesting people

A lot of those claims are accurate. There are tons of attractive people here, the weather is generally pretty amazing (think 18C to 25C), and the ‘laid-back’ culture is definitely a thing. People value enjoying life here — not to say other cities not, but there’s a certain emphasis on social gatherings, eating well, and being healthy.

I think it’s also well-reflected in the types of people I’ve met here. While there are definitely career-driven people, it’s not like my experience in San Francisco at all. I.e. a person may work in marketing at a creative agency, but I’d be surprised if that came up in initial conversation. Instead, said person might dive into their passion for surfing, yoga, floristry, or countless other topics / hobbies. In contrast, I rarely made it 2-3 minutes into a conversation (if that) where the question “Which tech company do you work for?” came up. Yes, not even ‘which company’, since there’s a 99% chance you work in tech.

This change has made LA very enjoyable. I’ve been to more live music sets in the past 3 months than I have in my entire life, and my immediate friend group (while still tech-oriented, given my interests) includes a doctor and production assistant (film). These people made me realize something about work — a job is simply that, ‘a job’.

That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t work hard, as I’m still very driven to be the top of my industry. However, it means you shouldn’t attach your identity to your work. Starting a company is cool, tech trends are cool, but if it’s hard to talk about anything else in a given conversation, that’s an issue. It was an issue for me a year ago — now I’d much rather chat philosophy (been diving deeper into spirituality recently) or why the Spurs are going to be the hottest team this coming season.

Geographically disperse

Now for the main drawback to LA: everything is VERY spread out. I’m staying in Redondo Beach, which is about 20 minutes south of the airport. Most of my friends live in Santa Monica or Venice, which, while still ‘LA’, is at minimum a 30 to 45-minute Lyft/Uber from my house. This means that meeting up for dinner, drinks, or other social activities is a commitment. That wasn’t the case in San Francisco, where you could walk the entire city in 1-2 hours (ask my mom, she’s done it!).

For many people, this is a big con to the city. However, to my surprise, it hasn’t been the biggest deal for me. I’m very extroverted, which typically meant that I loved meeting up with people & socializing. I realized that my extroversion was largely due to my environment: in college and in geographically dense areas, it was hard not to socialize. Bored on a Friday? Go out with your friends. No plans on Sunday? Grab brunch.

LA made me put a lot more thought into what I actually want to do, given how big of a commitment travelling around LA is. This meant, for the past 3 months, I only did something if I really wanted to do it. I still grab dinner with friends on a weekly basis and hit the bars every ~ 2 weeks, but it’s at a more infrequent cadence than before.

And I love it! I’ve spent a lot more time reading, playing games, and doing other solo activities that I previously ‘didn’t have time for’. I realized what I like doing and which social activities I truly enjoy. It’s improved my self-control and understanding of myself tenfold and for that, I have LA to thank.

Betting on LA?

I’m a fan of Los Angeles, but I mentioned earlier that (despite all the pros) I don’t want to live here long-term. There are a number of factors that go into my decision, but I’ve summarized them below:

  • Family: This is a top priority for me, and my family is based out of the Toronto area. As much as I like the West Coast, a 6-hour flight and 3-hour time difference means a spontaneous weekend trip isn’t possible. Into my professional career, I want to be intentional in making time for family, and visiting 3-4 times per year for holidays isn’t enough for me. LA is too far.

  • Curiosity: I like LA but I didn’t fall in love with the city. If that’s the case, being fairly young, I should endeavour to find a city that I really enjoy. That means trying a lot of other cities that I’ve been curious to live in — New York City, London (UK), Paris, Montreal, the list goes on. One day I’ll settle, but not until I’ve found that (near) perfect fit.

I don’t like travelling

As a final thought, why living VS travelling? Aside from the hustle-bustle I mentioned above, I also believe that I don’t get a good feel of the city unless I’m living there for ~ 1-2 months. For example, with San Francisco, I visited in Feb 2017 and thought I’d want to live there. After living there for a year, I realized I hated it. LA was a somewhat similar story — I loved the city when I visited, now I’m a fan but am not in love with it.

Couple points as to why I think living > travelling when it comes to trying new cities:

  • Impact on routine: If I’m travelling to a city for a week, I’m not in a routine. It’ll feel a lot more like a vacation (which it probably is). Living somewhere means you enter your routine after 2-3 weeks — for me, that’s hitting the gym, shopping + cooking, cadence for social activities, and more. I’ll only know how the city affects that routine after getting into my groove. I.e. San Francisco made nightly activities (i.e. restaurants, board game cafe, etc.) difficult, since the city closes early. In contrast, I’d assume NYC makes nightly activities too enticing, since ‘the city never sleeps’. Seeing how this affects my day-to-day is crucial to how much I like a city.

  • Knowing the ‘locals’: I’ve heard from friends that when visiting cities, they get a good vibe of the locals. I would disagree — it’s hard to really know locals after 1-2 interactions. It’s only when you’ve lived in a city for several weeks/months, will you get to understand their personality, life mindset, etc. For LA, I didn’t realize the wealth divide/inequality and how that affects a given person’s viewpoint on life + work until more than 6-8 weeks in. Likewise, I didn’t realize how ingrained tech was in everyone’s lives in San Francisco until I lived there for a while and could compare.

  • Comparing to tourists: This is a bit of a weird one — when you’re visiting a city, you’re a tourist. That means that anyone you meet who is also a tourist has the same mindset as you: explore the city as much as possible and get the ‘vibe’ of it. After 6-8 weeks, I found my mindset transitioned from ‘I’m just visiting / getting settled’ to ‘I live here now’. That means when friends visited LA, I could better contrast how I felt about the city to how they viewed it (fresh eyes). I think it’s at this point where I can really draw a conclusion about the city.

Conclusion

I hope to ‘live’ in many more cities before I’m old. There are many parts of the world I don’t care to ‘visit’, so I’d much rather plan out future trips with ‘living’ in mind. I.e. if I’m very bullish on France and the UK, why do a ‘Europe’ trip over 2-3 weeks? Why not live in France for 2-3 months and then move to the UK, if I feel the need?

Granted, running my own business gives me the flexibility to do this + work from basically anywhere (need strong internet & working around timezones). However, I hope this post gave some insight regarding my mindset towards travel, and my thoughts on LA. As always, all feedback is welcome!

Building wealth

A big house in Los Angeles.

A big house in Los Angeles.

Millennials aren’t thinking enough about savings and retirement. Articles like this one focus on how fads like ‘avocado toast’ are to blame — my generation loves luxury and living on credit, opposed to stowing away their hard-earned cash.

‘Cash under the mattress’ isn’t the way, however, to build wealth. Instead, many people look to investment vehicles such as real estate and the stock market. This post challenges that idea — I think that in order to build wealth, I need to do one thing well: focus on high-leverage activities that use my skill sets. This article will review my mindset, why I don’t believe in traditional ways of building wealth, and my hunch on why building a business is the best way to do so.

Immigrant mentality

Well, not exactly. I was born in raised in Mississauga, ON (Canada, for all my ‘Murican readers), although both my parents immigrated to Canada as young adults. I won’t go into detail (some background in this post), but I was raised in a pretty frugal household. Lifestyle aside, this shaped my mentality towards money — both the need to conserve it and the drive to earn it.

My parents grinded to be able to raise my brother and I in a financially stable household. Credit card debt, mortgages, and car payments were foreign to me, as my parents prioritized paying everything off ASAP. This was for better and for worse — money (while not abundant) was never a dinner table conversation, however I didn’t learn how to leverage debt.

Our family got burned, like many others did, with our investments (mutual funds) by the 07-08 financial crisis. The only investment vehicle I knew growing up was a Guaranteed Investment Certificate (GIC) account, which typically returns 2% to 3% annually. Put your money in, lock it up for 1-3 years, and forget about it. When starting college, I ventured into the stock market and made some great gains on Shopify, Amazon, and Square (more here). Hurray!

My mindset has changed in recent years. In my opinion, my parents worked hard to allow my brother and I to take risks. I’m fine with calling it ‘privilege’, because in many elements, that’s what it is (earned or not). I don’t have a family to support, wife/kids, or hold much debt (student or otherwise). Hence, I should be open to taking risks in my financial planning, and ‘wealth building’.

My privileged position to take risks means that reasonable gains (i.e. S&P grows 8% annually according to Investopedia) are insufficient. Due to my Type A / Alpha personality, my goal in life is to 10x or 30x the wealth of my parents. Is that possible using traditional investment vehicles?

Real estate, stocks, and ‘traditional investing’

Well, let’s find out! And by that, I mean let’s do some back-of-the-envelope math that explains my thinking. Disclaimer: I’m a Political Science graduate, so this math is far from foolproof. In fact, it may even be foolhardy. If that’s the case, please send me a message before my mom sees this, so I can fix it :)

Base scenario (income)

To make things easier, I’ll set up an example: let’s say my parents have built a net worth of $1MM CAD. My goal, therefore, would be to build a net worth of $10MM CAD or $30MM CAD. To further simplify this, I’m going to lean on a 10-year projection. Keep in mind, the goal of this section is to set up a base scenario, not to be exact with what I would earn (without ‘investing’).

The average business graduate makes around $70k CAD per year, but for argument sake, let’s bump that to $85k CAD. Post tax, this would leave me with around $63k CAD of disposable income (calculated here). I’ll set some parameters below on what my annual expenses might look like:

  • Rent: $12,756 ($1,063 / mo average)

  • Food: $3,396 ($283 / mo average)

  • Entertainment: $5,340 ($445 / mo average)

  • Insurance: $2,722 (quote from AllState on my 2010 Lincoln MKX)

  • Misc: $1,380 ($65 for phone, $50 for gym average)

A total of $25,594 of expenses; leaving me with $37,406 of disposable income. Again, being pretty conservative here — no vacations, buying clothes, etc. The challenge now is to project what my income would be like after 10 years. After some limited Googling, I found some ways to project this…

5 years out — The typical route for many business graduates is an MBA around ~ 2 years in. The MBA takes 2 years to complete, which means my approximate salary (5 years in) would be that of an MBA graduate. Attending a good MBA program means an average salary of $103,024 (see here); to give the same boost I did post-undergrad, let’s go with $125k, or $86,585 post-tax. Minus the same expenses (would likely go up, but for argument’s sake), $60,991 left in Year 5. Again, I’m assuming I’m earning $$ while I’m doing my MBA (usually not true), but bear with me.

10 years out — this one was a lot harder. I’m still on Google (cutting into my Netflix time…), and found a few answers. This Quora article projected average increase in salary, but was somewhat aggressive. I altered it using this Global News article, using a 7% increase for pay raise, 12% for promotion, and 20% for job-switching (aggressive). Using these projections, and a flat rate of expenses, I would make $105,111 post-tax & expenses in year 10.

Option #1 — Investing in stocks

To be realistic (and honestly I did this after calculating the first time), no one invests ALL of their disposable income. It is recommended that you save 20% of your income for a rainy day, or externalities (illness, vacations, etc.). So, I redid the calculations to factor that in (see here)

Using the S&P annual return rate of 8%, and compounding it (I think that’s the word) over a 10-year period, I would have amassed $788,114. This is pretty solid; just by investing and matching the market, I would have saved around ~ 17% more than if I just kept my money in the bank. However, it doesn’t match my optimistic goals — I wouldn’t have even 1x’d my parents’ wealth, 10 years into my career (WITH an MBA). Furthermore, I’m not considering that I would pay tax on the investments I’m making (TFSA contribution maxes at $6k per year).

Counter point: Wouldn’t this compound for the remainder of my 35-year career? For kicks, I calculated that at 8% annual return. I would be left with just over $11.6MM at the age of ~ 67. This assumes I never buy a home, have kids, go on vacations, increase my expenses (since the age of 22…), and invest ALL of my disposable income into the stock market.

Option #2 — Investing in real estate

Most people want to own a home at some point in their life. However, does it make a good investment? Traditional logic says yes — the value of property increases year-over-year, not to mention the rental income that you can make off of it. It does come with a mortgage and down-payment, but you would supposedly surpass that through your capital gains, right?

Time to find out! I have even less knowledge about real estate than stocks, so once again, I’m trusting Google to guide me through it. There are a TON of factors to consider — what type of home am I buying? Is it a condo, detached home, etc.? How many bedrooms?

For the sake of this scenario, I’m going to go with a 2-bedroom, 2-bath condo in Toronto that I can rent out to (2) people each month. According to the Financial Post, this would cost me $558,000 in 2018. Let’s see how that adds up:

Down-payment: $111,600 (20% of the total), which I should have by Years 2-3 in my income projections. So, I’ll assume I’m not investing my first 2 years of income, and be able to make the purchase in Year 3.

Counter point: My parents could co-sign a condo for me, and this would allow me to make the downpayment immediately, paying them interest + only having the cost of the mortgage. I’m not including my parents’ in this model, aside from in my investment motivations, to make matters simpler.

Awesome, I’m a home-owner! And real estate always increases in value, right? Historically, yes — the National Association of Realtors (USA) says it increased by an average of 5.4% from 1968 to 2009. An 8-year projection from 2008 to 2016 saw GTA home prices increase by a whopping 63% (see here). And, if we look at just 2017 to 2018, it only increased by 1.8% in the GTA (see here). So, for the sake of this argument, let’s just use historical price increases — 1.9% annual increase, from 1982 to 2019 (see here). My condo would be worth $636,580 by Year 10.

Counter point: I’m investing in real estate because of the exploding value, what if it keeps going up? Using the 63% growth mentioned above, the condo would be worth $958,440 by Year 10. Keep this in mind!

Mortgage: $28,512 per year ($2,376 per month, according to the same article)

To avoid over-complicating things, I’m going to assume that I do not live in my condo and keep the same level of expenses. This allows me to rent out the entire property, treating it as a true investment vehicle. See below:

Rental Income: $33,732 per year ($2,811 per month, according to this article)

Net-net, I would walk away each year with $5,220 in rental income. Not bad, especially if my post-tax salary in Year 3 is $50,128. Over the span of 10 years, my condo would appreciate an additional $78,580, which is $7,858 per year. So is it fair to say that I’ll make $13,078 per year?

At minimum. This starts at Year 3, and there’s a high likelihood that I will make enough money to purchase additional properties in the span of the 10 years. I tried estimating this, assuming I could purchase a new condo of the same value every ~ 2 years, and make rental income throughout. I would have amassed close to $3MM in property value, and $120,060 in rental income over the 10 year period.

From what I can tell, investing in real estate is a lot more lucrative than putting your money into an index fund. Hiring a property manager (6% of rent; $2,023 per year) means it’s not time-consuming either. Even with maintenance fees, the property value alone is hitting 3x of my parents’ wealth in a 10-year span. This looks like the best option so far.

Remember I said to keep the 63% growth rate in mind? Looks like it would be $3.7MM instead of $3MM, when applied to the same scenario (calculated here).

Option #3 — Investing in… Business?

Okay time for some heavy personal bias, but you’re on my blog, so you signed up for that! I think both stocks and real estate are boring. It’s a way to hold a 9-5 and make ‘passive’ income, in a way that is glorified by the 4-hour Work Week and envied by those who are married to their job. It’s not for me, however, the highest leverage way to build wealth .

The barriers to buying a stock or buying a property are very low. You don’t need operational knowledge for the renting (property management). ‘The market’ and its consistent returns are open to everyone. My dad, who was a mechanic his whole life, trades Shopify in 5-10 day windows, and has 2x’d to 3x’d his retirement savings in the past few years (more on this in a future post).

High leverage activities are ones that make the most of your skill set, and the time you allocate to them. I’m a marketer, which means I have a pretty good understanding of how to ‘grow’ products — direct-to-consumer brands, B2B or B2C software, etc. Should my goal of building wealth not align with the career that I’m building?

I would argue yes. That’s why I signed up for this Micro PE course, that walks you through the nitty gritty of buying a business — including outreach, contract templates, getting financial leverage (read: not your typical mortgage), growing the business, and switching from ‘active’ to ‘passive’ investing.

In the first few videos/lessons, one thing stands out — someone who starts a business needs to figure out product, customers, and make revenue. By buying a business, you already have guaranteed demand, sustain the payback period (i.e. $2k monthly revenue, even if you don’t grow), and get the years of training + labour for free. The challenge? Finding businesses that don’t need daily nurturing (time-intensive), or are already producing high yield due to a good founder (expensive to buy).

Over the next 2-3 weeks, I’ll be completing the Micro PE Course, and I’ll write a review on this blog. Sign up here to take the course with me, or wait until after my review to make your decision. I’ll also be sharing the growth tactics + internal conversations that I have when going through this process — the same one I apply with Abacus Growth, helping companies like Atmosphere, Walden, and PolicyMe.

Will this really deliver more ROI than investing in stocks or real estate? TBD, but I’m excited to find out. Subscribe to my blog for updates!

More disclaimers: Obviously, this post did not delve into the particulars of stocks & real estate, but I hope it did walk you through how I think about them. You can make 150% a year trading stocks, or several millions by ‘flipping’ houses. While I may incorporate those in my wealth building strategy, that isn’t the game I’m trying to play :)

The Keto diet: a 7-week experiment

My best friends for the last 7 weeks. Oh, and Superhuman, saves me a ton of time.

My best friends for the last 7 weeks. Oh, and Superhuman, saves me a ton of time.

‘Eat healthy, count calories, and exercise’ was the advice I used to live by when it came to trying to lose weight. It makes sense — if you put good things into your body, eat less than you’re supposed to, and challenge your body with weights + cardio, you will look and feel good. Naturally, I was intrigued when I first heard of the Keto diet, which argues you can eat a ‘high fat, low carb’ diet to lose weight and, more importantly, be healthy.

I took the dive on Keto by trying it out for 7 weeks. This post will break down my path to fitness, why I started Keto, my experience on the diet, and overall thoughts now that I’m no longer doing it. If any of that isn’t your cup of tea, feel free to skip — I’ll be posting more tech / marketing stuff soon!

Healthy roots

My parents were health-conscious in raising my brother and I — we rarely had sugary drinks at home, ate a bowl of (cut) fruit a day, and both participated in a number of sports growing up. I personally played several seasons of competitive basketball and soccer, skied, and dabbled in other sports (cross country, hockey, etc.). This meant that, from an early age, being physically fit + healthy was core to how I viewed myself. A lot of good things come from body positivity, but I’m still out here trying to look like Ronaldo.

Despite this, I had weight problems as a kid. Before my growth spurt, I remember my mom having to get 32” ‘husky’ jeans from the US, so she didn’t have to tailor 6” off the regular ones. I thinned out a lot in my teenage years, and only started lifting weights towards the tail end of high school. Throughout college, I experimented with different workouts, took protein, bulked & cut, etc. all to get into better shape.

Some strategies worked better than others, i.e. the 4x4x8 routine helped me get past a big plateau and increase the weight of my lifts by 20% to 30%. Similarly, implementing tactics like intermittent fasting, low carbs (i.e. chicken breast + salad), and counting calories helped me lose around 10lbs (after pic). Other strategies, like ‘bulking’ made me add it right back without seeing any drastic changes to strength.

Granted, a lot of this may have been due to doing a strategy ‘properly’ or not. However, like communism, it’s hard to have faith in a strategy if you’ve never seen it done correctly, or know what’s wrong when you’re implementing it. Therefore, if you’re considering starting the Keto diet, hopefully this post will help with that.

Taking the dive

I follow a guy named Ryan Kulp on Twitter; initially because his company was a Clearbit customer and I was doing interviews, but later due to his funny and unapologetic opinions. Regardless, he started Keto and lost a lot of weight (around 30lbs I think?), despite spending most of his day at his computer, like me. He was so passionate that he wrote a book called Fitness for Hackers — the ultimate guide for those in sedentary lifestyles to kickstart their fitness journey, via diets, workouts, and technology!! (Google Sheets, Trello, Zero, MyFitnessPal, etc.).

I signed up to be an early tester, which meant reading the book, implementing it for 90 days, and giving feedback along the way. I was already curious about Keto, as I met his co-founder who built incredible businesses in Perfect Keto and Kettle & Fire (Keto-friendly). I also am very interested in habits, life hacking, etc., so the mental / energy benefits were also intriguing.

Hence, I took the plunge to start Keto on May 20, 2019, and officially ended it on July 9, 2019. Below, I’ll explain the pros & cons of the diet, my personal experience with it, and my verdict on ‘going Keto’.

Pro — Eat foods you enjoy

I didn’t like doing a low-carb diet when I cut in early 2018; it was miserable, bland, and overall hard to stay motivated. With Keto, dieting became somewhat enjoyable. It’s high-fat, which means I was able to eat things like yogurt, bacon, cheese, etc. The fact that this did NOT affect the success of the diet, and in fact was a central component, made this a pro of Keto. I still had to be healthy — I didn’t eat sweets (sugar), fried foods (carbs), or even fruit (also sugar). However, it was still doable — sample meal below:

Rinse &amp; repeat for every meal! Although avocados are expensive, damn…

Rinse & repeat for every meal! Although avocados are expensive, damn…

Pro — Mental clarity

It’s possible my body is still adjusting, but 7 days after quitting Keto and I’m noticing the differences. I’m definitely lower energy (need 2 cups of coffee VS just 1), and feel hungrier more often. My days are also arguably less productive; I usually wasn’t starving when I ate my Keto lunch, and could get right back into work afterwards. Now, eating sandwiches + carbs, I get into a slump around 2pm and find it hard to get on track.

Pro — Weight loss & strength gain

The challenge to traditional low-carb diets is that you lose strength; i.e. it’s fine for someone who just wants to drop a few pounds, but if I start regressing in the gym, it’s definitely not worthwhile. In contrast, I was nervous that a high-fat diet would actually cause me to gain weight, as is the gut reaction (pun intended). Over the 7-week period, both were proven wrong: I lost weight and was able to lift more in the gym.

Con — Social challenges

Doing Keto means that, while you can eat foods you enjoy, you can’t eat a lot of foods (whether you enjoy them or not). An immediate go-to is alcohol — I could technically drink hard alcohol (i.e. whisky), since it was carb-free (more on this later), but I couldn’t drink beer, cocktails, and even wine needed to be limited. Eating out with friends was tough; a lot of spots (sushi, ramen, etc.) were off the list, and I had to be super careful when I did go to a restaurant, in terms of the sauce they used, vegetables, etc. At first, this was awkward, but eventually it just became annoying and made social interaction a pain.

Con — Skin & bowels

This part is a little gross, as a heads-up… A high-fat diet has implications outside of weight loss, as I was changing the way my body processed food. For starters, I had bad eczema growing up and still have very sensitive skin. A high-fat diet wrecks havock on this, where my skin started to get uncomfortably dry. The worst part was the bowel movements — a high-fat diet can either cause constipation or diarrhea as (if) your body adjusts. Initially, I had minimal issues and used avocados + spinach as my green. After I got ‘knocked out of Keto’, about 3 weeks in, I started to get diarrhea while my body adjusted. That meant the runs 3x per day, for several days in a row. Not fun.

Con — Consistency & consequences

Calorie-counting is a numbers game; i.e. if I eat too much today, I can just run it off tomorrow or make it up later in the week. Even terrible cheat days don’t set you back that much, right? Not with Keto. Once your body is ‘fat adapted’, even eating (1) carb-heavy meal can throw you off. For me, this was Pho after a night out with friends. Following this, despite taking exogenous ketones and eating properly, I was ‘out of ketosis’ for a solid 8+ days. That meant eating a high-fat diet, with no reward, for 8+ days. VERY demoralizing.

Another example was alcohol — despite being allowed under Keto, I developed a pretty low tolerance (no carbs to process it). That’s fine, except for hangovers — I got drunk twice in my 7-week journey, and both resulted in a terrible morning after. Think 5+ hours of stomach pain, throwing up, being unable to move / function, etc. Now I’ve had bad nights out, but both these nights were fairly tame with terrible consequences.

The verdict?

Over my 7-week journey on Keto, I also worked out around 4x per week — twice with a focus on weight-training, and twice where the focus was more cardio-heavy. Results below:

  • Lost 8.8lbs (167.4 to 158.6)

  • Lost 1.9% body fat (15% to 13.1%)

  • Various gains in the gym (bench, squat, curls, etc.)

I’m still going to keep my 90-day commitment by working out consistently, counting calories, and possibly adopting an alternative diet recommended by Ryan. For me, Keto wasn’t worth it — I’m confident I can lose weight by following my initial mantra. However, there are a number of unintended benefits that came from doing Keto:

  • Alcohol consumption: I made a New Year’s resolution to quite drinking entirely, which coincidentally lasted 7 weeks as well. After this and Keto, I can say I’m no longer conditioned to drinking alcohol during meals, social events, or even having the same urge / need to ‘get lit’ on nights out. This is a huge W, as it changes my approach to social situations and what I want from them.

  • Carb & calorie-conscious: Keto made me avoid a lot of foods that aren’t great for me anyways. Fried foods, sweets, and snacks in general are a huge killer to effective dieting and productivity. Moving forward, I might still adopt some Keto restrictions so that I can be healthier and get more out of my day. I.e. eating my lunch in 2 attempts VS 1, so I don’t have the carb-loading slump.

  • Don’t eat unless you’re hungry: Through the Fitness for Hackers guide, I implemented an intermittent fast (16:8) that I still follow, which means eating between the hours of 1pm and 9pm. This made me realized how many times I would’ve ate (i.e. breakfast) without being hungry, or ate as something to do (i.e. snacking, many of which are not Keto-friendly).

  • Have health goals: Doing Keto gave me something to strive for, health-wise. Whether you’re training for a marathon, trying to hit certain weights in the gym, or a small goal like removing sweets from your diet — these all motivate you to keep fitness & health as a top priority. In the future, I definitely want to find other creative ways to do this.

It’s also worth noting that, technically, I didn’t really do Keto right. To do it effectively, you’re supposed to avoid alcohol entirely (drinking stops your liver from producing ketones) and avoid dairy until you’re fat-adapted. I didn’t do either, and this probably took a toll on its effectiveness + my ability to stay in ketosis.

Conclusion

Keto is an interesting concept — I think it can definitely be effective in spurring weight loss (while not diminishing strength), ONLY if it is done properly. If I do Keto again, which I probably will, I would endeavour to avoid alcohol entirely and follow the rules more strictly (re: dairy).

Regardless, weight loss + fitness can be achieved in other ways that are proven and healthy. I like bread, pasta, fruits, vegetables, and other items that are taboo to Keto. I definitely believe I can eat those while being healthy + physically fit. Therefore, no Keto for now!

Disclaimer: None of this is medical or professional advice, but if you decide to try Keto and potentially drastic improve or ruin your life, use my referral code!

Caveat: A big part of quitting Keto was due to my parents coming to visit me in LA this week, where being ‘Keto’ should get me a smack to the back of the head 😂My mom is a nurse and I assumed she would disapprove when I told her (update as of July 17, told her; she does), so now I can live my life in peace!

Vulnerability and genuine interest

Deep conversations — will I be doing this when I’m their age? Will I be white?! Lots of questions.

Deep conversations — will I be doing this when I’m their age? Will I be white?! Lots of questions.

‘Small talk’ is a concept almost everyone is familiar with — it could be with a stranger sitting next to you on an airplane, with a new colleague at a team lunch, or even with people you know well in time-constrained situations.

In sales, it’s easy to game the system around small talk and establishing connection with a prospect. I can shoot the breeze with an older gentleman from the mid-west as well as I could with a young social justice warrior out of San Francisco. Except for the select socially awkward friends we all have, we’re conditioned to read social cues, avoid certain topics, and respond accordingly to co-exist.

My perspective around this has changed a fair amount over the past year, and I want to share my thought process & approach through this post. If you’re looking for a tech / marketing-focused read, this probably isn’t your cup of tea.

Ingrained in leadership

Positions of leadership are acquired through a combination of things — qualifications for the position, passion for the work, etc. Above all, I’ve found that many positions are secured via respect and admiration for the individual — you want to be associated with them, hence it makes sense to put them in a position of leadership where being a follower / subordinate brings a sense of pride.  

In my high school days, I was heavily involved in student politics. Voting was obviously a key component of this —being recognized and liked by a wider audience. For students looking to get elected, this meant meeting as many students as possible, and establishing a minimum level of rapport with them that would elicit a vote.

This continued into my college days, where ‘leadership’ positions required a base level of competency but were still largely a popularity contest. Network, build rapport, climb the ladder. This spilled into my social life as well — I found it difficult to spend too much time with one friend / friend group, since I always wondered what the opportunity cost was of doing so.

This made it very difficult to build deeper relationships, since I never knew one person well enough to be vulnerable and share what was really on my mind. It started with ‘How are midterms going’ and transitioned to ‘XYZ sucked at work’. To clarify, I was far from a loner; I had plenty of friends, but the majority were functional — i.e. enjoyable in the context they were made (during work, men’s soccer, etc.).  

A generational problem

I’m convinced this is an issue that plagues the younger generation, due to ‘instant communication’ and online connection. I have the illusion of lots of friends (i.e. on Facebook), and even for people I would consider true friends, I have the illusion that I’m up to date on their lives (i.e. their Instagram stories).

What’s the effect of this? For starters, it gives me the impression that I know how someone is doing VS how they’re actually doing. I think this plays strongly into the rise of poor mental health in young people: I.e. ‘yes I know you went to New York City last week, but what was keeping you up while you were there?’ or ‘Congrats on getting into law school, moving across the country will be fun! How’s your relationship with your parents?’.

These are deep questions, and to be fair, I wouldn’t feel comfortable asking them with 95% of the people I know… Is that not a good thing? There’s only so many hours in the day, why not spend them building deeper relationships with the 5% that matter the most to you?

From a different lens: A friend recently told me that he only keeps in touch with (5) friends from college. That shocked me at first, but it made a lot of sense. You’re obligated in certain environments (work, school, etc.) to interact with people and even be ‘functional friends’. It’s only once you leave this environment do you have to reflect on who you want to keep in touch with. Unfortunately, at that point, it’s too late to invest in the relationships you value if you haven’t already.

How I’m changing my behaviour

As the title says, there are two things that I started focusing on in the past year (even less) to develop a stronger support base and deep relationships. I’ll break them both down, in terms of my approach + how I built up to tackling them directly:

Genuine interest

I’m guilty of not letting people finish their sentences. Not in terms of cutting them off (mansplain), but more that I stop giving them my full attention about 60% through and start thinking of my response. This is typical in a ‘networking’ conversation — you want to show the person that you’re listening to them, while also trying to accomplish your own agenda (i.e. feel out for referral if job, or potential client).

My goal in the near future is to eliminate this tendency and focus explicitly on taking a genuine interest in the people I’m chatting with. If they’re boring, and I realized I’m not actually enjoying the conversation, I should either dig deeper or end it. If not, it could yield some very interesting conversations where I learn more about a person + their passions, along with better understand my interests and what I want to discover.

Vulnerability

With genuine conversations comes a deeper sense of connection; strangers become acquaintances and eventually good friends. The second step in this path is to focus on being more vulnerable with people I consider ‘good friends’. How often does someone ask you ‘So what’s new?’ and you immediate jump into a recap of your week? For me, catching up often entailed this, and it made me dread the conversation after 5-10 minutes, even if it was with someone who I would consider a ‘good friend’.

My goal is to increase my level of vulnerability with people who I want to develop deeper connections with. There are a few stages to this that I’m going to try, to help ease myself into this new behaviour:

#1 Starter questions

Switch from starting conversations with ‘What’s up?’ to ‘How are you feeling?’ — this should immediately change the nature of the conversation and skip the formalities / small talk that usually take up the first 5-10 minutes. Shorter interactions will be more fruitful, or spur on future longer conversations that wouldn’t have been had otherwise.  

#2 Flow of consciousness

Recently, with people where I’m looking to be more vulnerable with, I’ve stopped worrying about how I articulate a thought or feeling. I.e. instead of saying ‘I’ve been having trouble with XYZ’, I switch to ‘XYZ is tough, here’s how I’m feeling, and what I’m thinking — does that make sense?’ This way, I get them to engage with what I’m going through VS just commenting on it from their perspective. It creates a bond, so you don’t feel like you’re tackling anything alone, with the other person ‘spectating’.

 #3 Intentionality

I think in many cases, I’m afraid of vulnerability due to the fact that it might involve placing a burden on someone else, or taking someone else’s burden. A friend goes through a break-up, and the default response is “I’m here if you need to talk”, but I rarely follow up on that. This may be the excessive planner in me coming out, but wrapping up conversations with next steps (either with the person, or on my own) can be helpful.

#4 Cadences

It’s tough to keep in touch with people, so why not plan it out? Building on my obsession with Google Calendar, I’ve started scheduling recurring ‘catch-ups’ with my friends. They can last 30-60 minutes, and range from as often as weekly to monthly. Some are structured, but the majority are open-ended — with the goal of voicing anything that’s on our respective minds. I’ve pushed them back, had conversations earlier than planned, etc. The goal is just to get into the habit.

Conclusion

Life is too short — every interaction should spur feelings, questions, and overall just feel worthwhile. I believe this begins with shrinking your ‘network’ and support base, making it exclusive to people you want to engage with and develop a deeper relationship with. This is followed by being intentional with vulnerability and taking a genuine interest in their respective lives.

This is not to say that networks and acquaintances are not important. A lot of relationships will continue to be functional in the context of work, sports, etc. However, as long as I’m being intentional with the close relationships that I’m fostering, I think I’m on a path to living a good life.

 This post was inspired by The Art of Happiness, a gift I received from my friend Steeve, and from starting a 5-Minute Gratitude Journal (adapted), which my friend Kanwar told me about.

Community is everything (All DRF 2019)

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When I returned from San Francisco back in September, I was honestly a little lost. I knew I wanted to build something, as many people do, but as all entrepreneurs know, the road is rough and lonely. Most of my good friends had full-time jobs, or were actively looking, whereas I was thinking of which problem space interested me and how I would go about building a business to address it. This wasn’t a more ‘noble’ or ‘purposeful’ path, but simply the one I felt was the best fit for me.

Trying to build something is not a fun headspace to be in, but one thing changed that — joining Dorm Room Fund (DRF). Since coming onto the team in November, I’ve been surrounded by highly motivated people, many of whom are trying to build their own business. In this post, I’ll dive into my experience with the organization thus far, my experience at our annual retreat (All DRF), and how that all fits into ‘community’.

What is DRF?

In 2013, Josh Kopelman and the team at First Round Capital (FRC) decided to make a bet. They saw that some of the hottest tech companies were being started by college founders, many of whom dropped out to build their business. This didn’t have to be the case; college is an incredible time in your life, whether that’s undergrad, MBA, or a different stage. The access to professors, resources, and like-minded students should incubate the greatest ideas. FRC wanted to improve the experience of building in school by funding student founders with a $20,000 pre-seed cheque.

The DRF team is essentially split into two parts — investment and operations. The former consists of ‘investment partners’ in each of our investment cities (Boston, NYC, Philadelphia, and San Francisco) that attend school in that area. They source deals from surrounding schools and make decisions on whether DRF should invest. The latter, operations, consists of partners that support DRF in a specific capacity, as well as DRF portfolio companies. I joined this team to help with marketing alongside my co-lead, Phillip, however there are other roles for engineering and design.

It was rewarding getting to share my marketing / growth ideas with our portfolio companies, and see them implement that into their planning. It has also been a blast getting to run DRF’s brand via social media, blog posts, and other cool initiatives in the pipeline. However, that’s not the point of this post; the best part about DRF has by far been the community.

‘The G.O.A.T.’

Ever since Tom Brady staged an incredible comeback to win the Super Bowl, the term GOAT (Greatest of All Time) has been thrown around in increasing frequency. It spilled into non-sports related conversation in reference to other incredible people, i.e. ‘That movie was amazing, DiCaprio is the GOAT’, and later spread to products and inanimate objects: ‘I’ve never felt so organized, Notion is the GOAT’, finally culminating in daily use for simply accomplishing a task (see below):

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How does this relate to DRF? Well, as cocky as it might sound, I strive to be the GOAT. I want to be the top in my field, have drive and grit that pushes me beyond the crowd, and inspire others to do the same. At the same time, I’m human — I’m prone to sleeping in, being comfortable in complicity and/or mediocrity, and being risk averse.

Community is a big indicator of success and potential. I prefer to call it ‘tribe’; the people you heavily associate with, who project and reinforce your value system, challenging you to strive for new heights. I try to surround myself with people who are at the top of their game, but this is rarely in a contrarian sense. Top = coveted job that everyone is striving for. This unfortunately creates a culture based on achievement; people who obtain these jobs have ‘made it’, and it becomes difficult to break the chain and continue to challenge yourself. I’ve seen this become an issue for people in their mid-20s, who face existential crises on whether they’re pursuing a career based on their values, opposed to one that validates their value choices.

Enter the DRF community: partners that hail from Ivy League schools and coveted MBA programs, all of whom were already at their top of their game when joining the DRF family. In just (6) years of existence, past DRF partners have gone on to become partners at top VC firms, start and run companies worth $100M+, participate (and graduate from) Y Combinator, and, as many high-caliber people do, work at those highly coveted jobs in tech, finance, and other fields. The difference, which I’ll dive into later in this post, is that they possess the drive to relentlessly pursue experiences (job-related and not) that get them one step closer to self-actualization.

3 Takeaways from All DRF 2019

Last weekend, I had the pleasure of attending DRF’s annual retreat, All DRF, that brought together 70+ current partners, alumni, and allies of the program for programming, updates, and team bonding. This was my first exposure to the full team and alumni in-person, and for an extended period of time, hence it’s the focus for this post. Below are some key takeaways I got from the weekend, which I think are universally applicable to any community / tribe.

(1) Support & Challenge

This past year, I witnessed a number of friends get new jobs and make big life decisions. In the process, they were supported by close friends who helped them prep, and made introductions for them that would increase their chances. This is typical of any strong community, built on a backbone of support. If these jobs were conventionally attractive (i.e. high-paying), or life decisions that were expected (i.e. moving for high-paying job), a pat on the back was automatically extended.

DRF is similar, in the continual openness and support offered by the community. The difference is that, in my experience, a ‘pat on the back’ is never automatically extended. You got a great job, kudos, but why are you taking it? It felt natural to get that outcome; what would be unnatural AND give you the same sense of gratification? Challenging your closest friends and urging them to share their thought process is crucial to building a strong and hungry tribe. It avoids confirmation bias and increases the probability that you’re pursuing the path of greatest return, not the one of least resistance.

(2) Search for diverse perspectives

I’m a marketer, which means my views are largely shaped from a ‘business’ lens. Most of my good friends are in business-related roles, i.e. finance, sales, etc. The majority of them also received a business education. This creates a homogenous worldview, despite efforts to diversify. Building on the previous point, a homogenous group can only challenge themselves to a certain extent; it is impossible for them to ask questions or approach problems in a way that is alien to their foundation.

DRF is bonded by a love for tech, a knack for building, and an interest in venture capital. This brings together a smorgasbord of people — engineers, researchers, MBAs, and more. Some partners are freshman in college, others are 10+ years into their career with multiple degrees. This range of perspectives means I can have the exact same conversation with a couple different people, and each goes in a very different direction.

Example: Over the weekend, I asked a few people how they reconcile their values with their work. I’ve tried this in the past with other circles, and it was usually met with ‘that’s a good question!’ or ‘I’m still trying to figure that out’ — the former forgotten a few minutes later and the latter met with no plan of action. At All DRF, this was rarely the case; in fact, I’ll list a few (summarized) views below:

  • Person #1 — Believes that you can reconcile your career with your value system, and pursue a career that fulfils it. I.e. social impact investing for someone that wants to make a difference. Reasoning: had an earlier near-death experience and seeks something more from life (work and personal).

  • Person #2 — Believes you don’t have to reconcile career with value system. Work is a natural motion and trying to find value in everything leads to misery. Reasoning: runs their own startup, is possibly already fulfilled to a certain threshold?

  • Person #3 — Believes that value system and career are mutually exclusive. Being challenged in work does not (always) mean being challenged in values, should aim to realize that through personal relationships and pursuits. Reasoning: wants to be a chef but works in tech, hard to aim for a convergence of the two paths.

This is just one, specific example, but there are many more that happened throughout the weekend. I.e. talking about starting a company yielded different results — one did it while in school, another dropped out, and another left a highly coveted job (Google APM) to pursue it. Tl; dr is that intentionally surrounding yourself with diverse perspectives gives you more to compare against when introspecting, and (in my opinion) gives you an enriched worldview. Can’t find these perspectives? Force yourself into situations (and communities) that will provide them.

(3) Never stop having fun

All this talk about career planning, optimizing for learning, and other cliches bring one thing to mind: hustle porn. The LinkedIn and Instagram ‘influencers’ that talk about ‘never stop grinding’, that laugh at the idea of work-life balance and idolize an unrelenting hunger for productivity. I hate this; it’s toxic, suppresses vulnerability, and makes you feel less valuable if ‘grinding’ is not your #1 priority.

At All DRF, after the workshops on venture investing and recapping DRF initiatives, we had fun. Everyone, regardless of age and stage of life, enjoyed decompressing through bowling, basketball, and even flip cup. I loved this part about All DRF, and to know my community values this balance, as it reinforces the notion that your career — synonymous with ‘hustling’ and ‘grinding’ — is only one part of your life. Personal relationships, hobbies, and, to put it bluntly, things that make you happy, comprise the rest. I believe that any successful community, and one I’d want to be a part of, should promote having fun and building relationships (note I said relationships, not connections or a network) as a core tenet of their membership.

Conclusion

Like many of the recent developments in my life, DRF was not ‘part of the plan’. Last summer, in San Francisco, I went to a NavTalent speaker event that my friend invited me to. In the pizza / drinks part of the evening, I met an Asian dude with impeccable style who was a design intern at a tech startup. After grabbing beers a few days later, he mentioned that a group he was a part of (DRF) was hiring for a new marketing partner. A few months later, after applying and interviewing, I joined the family.

I can’t thank DRF enough for taking a chance on me and welcoming me into their family. As with many other communities, it’s what you make of it — and I hope I can maximize my contribution in the time I have left. If you’re looking to improve student entrepreneurship on your campus, or if you’re a student starting a venture and looking for funding, drop me a note at trevor@dormroomfund.com :)

Race, Culture, and Heritage

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Slack, a messaging tool for groups and companies, broke social norms when they announced users could change the colour of emojis, like ‘thumbs up’ or ‘raised hands’. Rightfully so, they were celebrated for giving users an opportunity to react in ways that truly represented who they were, and didn’t default to a bright yellow tone (think most smile emojis). For me, it sparked an internal debate around who I associated with racially, and how I choose to portray myself on a day-to-day. Talk about an ‘aha!’ moment for a product, am I right?!

This post will primarily go through my thought process around race, culture, and heritage, including personal experiences and how I see the discourse.

Being Canadian

About 2 weeks ago, I was staying with my parents in Mississauga and visiting some friends and former colleagues in Toronto. I missed the GO train and my dad was generous enough to drive me to the subway station. He also flagged down another man, probably in his late 20s, offering to give him a ride.

In the car ride over to Kipling, the man revealed that he worked in Toronto and had immigrated to Canada about a year ago. When asked about my dad’s path to immigration, he proudly revealed that he had been in Canada for 40 years. As someone born and raised in Canada, this didn’t initially register to me. My dad came to Canada at a relatively early age from Guyana (a Caribbean nation), and spent the entirety of his adult life in this country. He has an accent, a ‘brown’ name, and is of a dark brown skin tone. He also listens to Kenny Rogers, dresses in typical ‘Canadian’ clothes, and has fully adopted this culture.

My mom came to Canada at the age of 17 from Goa (India) — a Portuguese colony. Her maiden name is Portuguese and she was raised Catholic. Coming at such an early age, she too has ‘grown up’ in Canada — we bond over ABBA and Jim Croce more than any ‘brown’ music, and she makes the meanest lasagna, salmon casserole, and chicken divan that I know. Like my father, she too has a ‘brown name’ and an accent, but a very light brown skin tone.

Fast forward to marriage and having kids — my name is Trevor and my brother’s name is Richard. I grew up skiing and speaking French (via the immersion program) and listening to Nickleback and Greenday. I don’t know any ‘brown’ languages, I’ve never been to India, and, to be honest, I don’t identify with the culture at all.

Unpacking identity

I see posts on Twitter and Facebook go viral around people taking pride in their culture. The word itself, ‘culture’, is worth unpacking as well. To me, it embodies the norms and symbols (language included) that I most identify with. Culturally, I’m Canadian, through and through. This hasn’t raised much debate, and rightfully so.

The word ‘heritage’ is harder to come to terms with. To me, it doesn’t represent so much the culture you identify with, but rather your cultural background. My father’s side of the family is predominantly Hindu — I grew up going to brown weddings, jhandis, and participating in those ceremonies. My father, brother and I all showed up to these events in jeans and a polo — I didn’t have any of the traditional garments. However, this was my ‘heritage’. It felt foreign and was difficult for me to reconcile with.

In contrast, my mother’s side of the family is Catholic and I was raised Christian. Some of my earliest memories are linked to Sunday School and worship songs. This is a big part of my heritage, as it is tightly aligned with my mother’s background. However, it is very far from being stereotypically ‘brown’. I don’t have any memories of distinct ‘Indian’ experiences, aside from the occasional food item that makes it into a family gathering.

Finally, there’s the concept of race. To me, this refers to your ethnicity, and is determined more by what others see you as than what you see yourself as. This isn’t much an issue for me — Caribbean nations were populated by Indian slaves, with the colony of ‘British Guiana’ coming to be in 1831. Likewise, the former Portuguese colony of Goa was thoroughly Indian before it was conquered. Therefore, despite my colourful heritage and cultural overlap, I’m ethnically Indian.

I’m not sure how this works for people who are of mixed race, i.e. half-white (Caucasian) and half-black (African-American). There’s also people who claim a variety of racial backgrounds, such as being 1/8 Chinese and 1/16 indigenous. If that person looks white, are they racially classified as Caucasian? Does it really matter if they can still claim other elements in their culture and heritage?

21st century flaws

Growing up in Canada, I never found racial tensions to be that pronounced. Yes, I understood the positive and negative stereotypes associated with being ‘brown’, along with the possibility that some people might discriminate against me. However, I can’t think of an explicit time that I experienced direct racism — the stereotypes were often a joke or in reference to an episode from The Simpsons than an experience that would shape my personality and worldview.

One of the most confusing encounters I’ve had with race and heritage was several years ago in applying for American colleges. There was a detailed section where you needed to indicate your background, which referenced region (i.e. South Indian, Latin-American, etc.). Naturally, I selected both South Indian and Caribbean. Opposed to getting an ‘Indo-Caribbean’ option following that selection, the only option I could select was ‘African-American’. I asked my father, and he mentioned that he had a similar experience in immigrating to Canada back in the 1970s. The overlap in how we see ‘race, heritage, and culture’ in comparison to how various institutions define it and causes a great deal of confusion. Some of these inconsistencies, decades later, have yet to be corrected.

How this all relates back to community is what I’m most interested in. Culturally, I’m stereotypically Canadian and therefore a lot of my friends reflect that. Naturally, a great number of those friends are also Caucasian. This has rarely caused any discomfort for me, as our interests, tastes in music, and even sense of humour are very similar. Race plays a factor, as does heritage, but neither are as salient as culture.

In contrast, I have a number of ‘brown’ friends, but the sense of community isn’t nearly as strong. I don’t get all the jokes, mid-sentence switches to Hindi, and cultural nuances. I’ve taken heat for not being able to recognize a Sanskrit tattoo or for having a look of confusion when someone tells me what part of India they’re from (‘That’s North right? Close to… Bombay?’). An experience that shook me quite a bit was while I was in San Francisco and met my roommate’s (also brown) friends at a party. I introduced myself as ‘Trevor’, and immediately they asked ‘but what’s your real name?’. After a few minutes of back-and-forth, including a point where I pulled out my driver’s license to prove it, the conversation ended with ‘sure, whatever you want to go with’. I don’t blame this person, but it really questioned my identity and whether I take enough of an interest in my background.

The intersection between these two groups (culturally familiar and racially familiar) brings the idea of ‘assimilation’ into the discussion. Many viral debates and movements are centred around governments and institutions trying to stifle cultural expression and have those individuals adopt what is ‘normal’. I never had to assimilate, since Canadian culture has always been what’s most familiar. For my parents, however, I wonder if there were instances where that shift to Canadian culture was a conscious decision — and whether Canadian culture really fit our family more than our respective pasts.

Conclusion

Race, culture, and heritage are all distinct concepts that influence my day-to-day life. They dictate the way I present myself (language, clothing, interests) and the people I associated myself with (community, tribe). I’ve been making an effort to take a greater interest in my heritage, as I think it’s incredibly important and something that should impact how I define myself as a person. I often wish I could speak an Indian dialect (i.e. Konkani) or that I felt more tightly associated with my heritage. While neither of those are possible without a ton of force, at this point in my life, what is possible is making an effort to learn about it.

For any first-generation or second-generation individuals asking the same questions I am, I’ll finish with this: race is a given, culture is what’s familiar, and heritage is up for discovery. Take the time to ask your parents and relatives about these experiences, as those experiences are a significant part of you as a human being. Definitely something I’ll be digging into for 2019!

Being 'over-productive'

Air Pods are peak productivity(?) (via Unsplash)

Air Pods are peak productivity(?) (via Unsplash)

I’m not ashamed to say that I’m obsessed with life hacks and productivity. I swear by Google Calendar, use Notion for organizing my to-dos and thoughts, and feel pretty disappointed when I wake up past my goal of 8:30am.

I have conversations with friends about how to be ‘more productive’. Some things, i.e. meditation and hitting the gym consistently, work wonders for my productivity. Others, like intermittent fasting and blocking time, haven’t been as effective. Regardless, it fires me up to think there’s someone out there working harder than I am and achieving more, while I’m sitting idle.

In this post, I want to explain my approach to being productive, how it’s changed over the years, and why I strongly believe there is such a thing as being ‘over-productive’ — it can be toxic, and my generation is most susceptible to it.

It’s always a race

I went to a high school with regional programs (i.e. IB), so competition was ingrained early. It wasn’t a question of whether you got honours, but rather how well you did relative to the rest of the class. Classmates were heavily involved — leading clubs and extra-curriculars outside of school, playing on competitive sports teams, the list goes on.

I fell into that, and it stuck with me — all my friends were shooting for (and getting into) the top programs for their respective interests. Fast-forward 4 years and those same former classmates are in med school, working software engineering jobs in Silicon Valley, or grinding at top consulting or banking firms. Simply put, it’s not special to be an over-achiever, the question is to what extent you can take it.

College was a similar story, but instead of getting top executive positions in school clubs, it migrated to getting top internships at coveted companies. Friend groups began to shift apart, and I increasingly tried to associate myself with people who were always on the look-out for new opportunities, hustled hard when given the chance, and often sacrificed health (mental & physical) to get there.

Conversations were (and still are) very predictable. “What are you up to for the summer?”, “Did you sign full time?”, “How are grad school apps going?”, and countless other questions that solely related to your position as a student and success towards (supposedly) objective career goals.

The working world

Things changed when I started working full-time at Clearbit. The majority of the company was in their late 20s or early 30s; anyone who was caught in the rat race of being ‘furthest ahead’ burned out by 25 and had since found a proper balance, while those that were late bloomers found their footing and were well content with their life — both career related and not.

I was shocked to be in this environment, and to be honest, a little lost. There’s hustle porn galore in The Valley, but I increasingly started to realize that your job was only a fraction of your life. I.e. your friend group, the city you’re living in, and what you do / think about outside of work is what shaped you as a person.

The sheltered environment of college and highly concentrated interest groups make for a rough transition to the ‘real world’. Example? I work in tech, read tech, and talk about tech a lot. This is fine in college, and a large part of my friend group is very engaged in tech. Entering the work world, even people I looked up to a ton, with regards to their tech knowledge + career, never wanted to talk about it outside of work. My job is not what defines me as a person, no matter how much I threw myself at it.

Over-productivity

The idea of being ‘as productive as possible’ marks the transition of college/young professional life into what could arguably be regarded as ‘full adulting’. I’m guilty of all the cliches; I tried intermittent fasting, I still meditate fairly frequently, and I’ve used grayscale on my phone, Moment, and deleted apps like Instagram and Facebook to maximize productivity.

I can confidently say this isn’t living; life loses its zest when all your activities are reduced to a slot in Google Calendar or related to how it positively or adversely affects your productivity / career progression (trackable by a spreadsheet). So with that in mind, I’ve tried making a conscious effort to dive deeper into my hobbies and interests, making decisions that don’t optimize for productivity, but instead for experience.

Example — I could stay in on a Friday night, grab a coffee and my laptop, and meticulously work on building a company. I could also ditch the laptop, hit the bars to hear live music with my friends, many of whom I may never see (ever, or for a prolonged period of time) after a few weeks when we part ways.

Conclusion

There’s a beautiful simplicity to taking goals & objectives off your day-to-day, and instead being intentional about enjoying life. Not to say that being driven is a bad thing, or that goals should go out the window. But the minute that they drive every decision I make and result in me missing out on experiences I otherwise would not have had, is where I have to draw the line.

The crisis of choice

Now THESE guys knew how to make decisions. Or relentlessly colonize the world. Maybe both!

Now THESE guys knew how to make decisions. Or relentlessly colonize the world. Maybe both!

Merely a few decades ago, religion had a strong hold on society. While the Enlightenment had long since passed, and church and state were clearly separated in most developed nations, many would still have considered themselves ‘religious’. Around 81% of Americans identified as white and Christian in 1976; that number has since fallen to 43%.

Secularization, in the face of globalization and an increasing access to technology, has created problems that did not previously exist. In this post, I want to un-pack what I understand this shift to mean. Tl;dr is that secularization is not intrinsically a bad thing, but the lack of change in other aspects of society is. And for anyone about to close the tab, I’m not preaching that religion is/is not a good thing, nor that you should / should not convert — that choice is up to you! This is purely a thought exercise to flesh out my thoughts and why I view the world the way I do.

A solid foundation

Religion, across the board, is a great source of values and morals for the average person. Many religions, and as a Christian I’ll speak primarily to that, preach the importance of community, loving thy neighbour, and being honest and void of temptation (alcohol & other influences).

They also preach a specific way of life that adheres to their vision of a perfect world. This comes with gender roles, denouncing certain types of behaviour (read: social conservatism), and often altering the world order from its current state. Cue debates on whether abortion or homosexuality should be made legal or not.

In an era where religion was extremely salient, many individuals could lean on religion as reasoning for their beliefs and decisions. You didn’t need to justify why a certain viewpoint was valid, you could simply state that it says so in scripture. This alone may not sound like enough — however when the majority of the country is religious, mounting an opposition is challenging.

Over the years, this dominance eroded; not just in the population as a whole, but especially in youth. Exposure to The Internet meant you no longer had to rely on your parent(s) to develop a worldview, which included your view on religion. Why ask Mom why the welfare gap exists when you could ask Google?

The challenge to this is lack of guidance — someone between the ages of 8-15 doesn’t have a de facto system for browsing The Internet and discerning what is real/fake. More importantly, there is no system for discovering what path they need to pursue in order to live ‘The Good Life’.

This used to be provided by religion. When you were lost or unsure of how to act, leaning on religious values or even scripture itself was the solution. The rise of secularism frowns upon that — as an individual, you should pride yourself in being able to reason over everything else.

The education gap

This phenomenon doesn’t just affect youth, but adults as well; perhaps even more. While youth had little guidance on how to form their world view, adults had little guidance on how to alter their world view. As mentioned above, previous arguments that used religion as reason could no longer be accepted. An adult in 2019 needs to be able to justify their world views using reason.

I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not always the most reasonable person, agreeableness aside. Although I try to ‘logic’ my way out of most decisions and scenarios, emotions get in the way and my judgement can sometimes be clouded. Don’t believe me? I’ve written full posts on regret and decision-making to rationalize (to myself) why I operate the way I do.

While I do falter on occasion, I’d like to think I’m quite capable of thinking critically about decisions and coming to reasonable conclusions. I don’t know if this is true for the majority of people — especially those who may be less educated. A prime example can be found in fake news: how many people are guilty of reposting (and/or commenting on) something they didn’t verify as factual? Worse yet, how many people are guilty of doing this without verifying if it was factual?

Niche news outlets and pundits allow for your typical individual in 2019 to consume content that solely affirms their views and beliefs. If I was socially conservative (I’m not), then following Fox News and selectively listening to Jordan Peterson and Ben Shapiro could be enough to get by. I could find justification for anything I believed in, without needing to explain my reasoning.

I blame education more than anything for this phenomenon. For starters, the K-12 system is more interested in teaching history and biology than it is with teaching financial and digital literacy. As much heat as liberal arts degrees get today for producing ‘unemployable’ graduates, the benefit is that they teach you how to read, not what to read. Being able to identify the bias in an article, find comparable pieces, and come to a conclusion on your own is the essence of critical thinking.

For adults, this problem compounds. Most adults aren’t in an environment like K-12 or post-secondary education where they are forced to learn. 24% of Americans haven’t read a book (even in part) in the last year. For those that never developed the ability to reason and filter information — whether due to dependence on religion, lack of education, or other factors — are lost in an age that throws more information at them than ever before.

‘Societal norms’ aren’t helping this. The minute I identify as conservative (I do), a whole swath of people shut their eyes/ears like they are in a terrible combination of Bird Box and A Quiet Place. People are afraid of debate, whether due to micro aggressions and fear of conflict, or simply because they don’t want to rock the boat. The value of ‘reason’ that led us to the Enlightenment is being shunned in an age where we are more developed than we ever were.

Steps to reason

This is usually the point in an article where I have a solution that gets me high fives from a handful of friends (and my Mom), before stumbling into a conclusion. Unfortunately, I don’t have the answer to this ‘crisis of choice’, but I have a few ideas:

1) Re-evaluate

Set a timer for 5 minutes and write a list of statements that you believe to be true about the world, including about yourself. Look at those statements and find reason as to why they are right/wrong. Then, challenge yourself on your reasoning. For some points, you may have no qualms. For others, you may furrow your brow, urging you to dive into that topic.

2) Read & write

Find areas of interest and read a lot about them. Philosophy, finance, politics, gardening, whatever you fancy. Then write about it — leverage the monster we call The Internet to organize your thoughts in a way that is presentable to a general audience, and invites discussion around it. This post took me about an hour and had me researching statistics on religion and reading to either challenge or validate my points.

3) Debate

I have a number of strongly held opinions — corporate jobs suck, everyone can get experience + money while in college, and sales is an underrated career path. None of these opinions are universal, that much is obvious. However, it’s not until I put my thoughts out there (and have them challenged), that I either further validate or invalidate them. For example: corporate jobs don’t suck, they’re a great outlet for people in tough financial situations, specific paths (i.e. doctor), and/or technical routes (i.e. engineer).

Conclusion

The dominance of religion throughout the 1900s allowed many to lean on it as reasoning for their values, morals, and the basis of social order. Through challenging the status quo, society was able to progress to guaranteeing basic human rights and equality to a larger group of people (i.e. ending apartheid + segregation, allowing gay marriage, etc.).

Increasing secularization and The Internet brought an influx of information and variance of choice that requires the ability to reason and think critically in order to come up with valid opinions. Most people don’t do this, nor do they need to.

Aside from a shift in education, individuals need to re-evaluate their existing views, read to answer lingering questions, and write + debate to further improve their understanding of the world. Failure to do so will further embed a culture of toxicity and fear that has already polarized a number of nations (i.e. USA).

Thanks to Phillip and a few other friends for sparking this idea and giving their thoughts. As always, if you disagree or have a strong opinion, please message me!